Useless me

Skipped class again this morning. I feel so useless. I'm a student and don't act like a student..always waste money, don't go to class but go shopping! Useless me! when will I wake up? 2 assignments haven't done started!!!
Argh...can't skip anymore classes!!

Well, yesterday couldn't sleep well... kept on waking up at night... too hot... cuz my blanket is too thick...so I removed my blanket...then too cold...couldn't sleep...!! Then what to do! remove or cover also cannot! Then my neck was in a great pain.. this side cannot, that side also cannot! how to sleep!!! Geeezzz...

then skipped class....went to prangin mall to shop for boots. Bought a pair of white coloured boots at a good price. I saw brown 1...nice...but I wanted black...black a lot of pairs also outta sizes...so went home with only a pair of white boots. Gonna go grab the brown coloured 1....! sooooooooon! hahaa......
but I know I won't always wear them..just saja wanna spend money!!!

so this is my plain white boots. plain boots will not be out to date.... so it's a better choice




My actual shoes size = 8. but for boots I take 9..bigger thus more comfy...weeeeeeeeeeeee

white one is too plain....getting 1 in brown....better...nicer....wooohoo

to do list

it's already week 4th or 5th of the semester. 5th I guess.. I am still blur about my course outlines.

1. research metho. assignment
2. operation management assignment
3. operation management test this week. chapter 1-4
4. find text books.

finish assignment before due date!!

hihi~

it's been a month since I ever applied mask on my face! argh, i feel so awful and dirty!
today is my last day in SP, going back to PG tomorrow!
i've a lot of things to buy....
sunglasses, shoes, heels, some accesories, headbands, mask....
OMG...... money please come back to me.
i am seriously in need of skin care.
believe it or not.
i m not using anything.....
no moisturizer.....basic skin care also none...just japan facial wash rm9 per tube which I got from watson......sometimes use st.ives scrub, or olay facial wash...mix...
then garnier toner only. that's all

i always like to buy skin care...... but my skin is very sensitive.... restrict me from using any products. i havent found a product which suits my skin! damn it. I dont feel like a lady...
seriously

现代男人

厉害说大话。吃饱没事做跟一班猪朋狗友喝茶，说大话，boom来boom去，说女生谁漂亮谁性感。就因为太无聊，没有见过世界，没有看过女生，丑的也被他们说到像天使。没有水准。
现代的男人。说话用boom的，往往说到做不到。
没钱却没有努力去赚，天天还可以跟猪朋狗友出去boom! 浪费宝贵时间，牺牲睡眠在外做些无聊的事。 花钱打game.
现代男人，有多少个可信？
现代男人，没有志气。
家里有钱的，每星期三星期六去clubbing, 开几支酒就以为很伟大，可以骗到很多无知少女回家。可怜的他们在暗暗闪闪的灯光下看到的女生全部都是美的。 回到家全部都是吓人的。这些现代男人，以为自己很威的男人，如果今天你没你老爸， 你是什么？！我告诉你，你是sampah masyarakat! 社会垃圾。
爸爸辛辛苦苦赚钱给你希望你会好好利用，给你一个很简单的开始，有钱，有做什么都容易。你却拿去泡女， 赌，到最后输了整家产，得了整身病，害了老婆孩子家人，你还是人吗？
没钱的，爸爸没有， 自己也没有上进心，要起步，多难？？需要多少的时间，多少的奋斗？没有钱了，就要好好珍惜，用最少时间最低本钱来企业。
现代男人，有多少个信得过？为了怕输， 没钱装有钱，到最后欠人一生zai(on debt)(我的华文不好我不会写)

现代男人，你何时醒呢？？？？

说不出的辛苦

我现在很闷哦。回到sp了。没有事做，家里又很热。如果在房间开冷气，就不能上网。因为房间没有wireless.
不能忍受热的我，就驾着我的白色myvi来到这个cafe online!
唉。。一个人。。还是一个人。。又是一个人。。
说真的，我很喜欢一个人的感觉。我可以没有知己， 我可以一个人过活。我的世界是寂寞的，黑暗的。我不喜欢有多多人的地方。我喜欢很暗的地方。我恨不得把我槟城的家放上黑色的窗帘！讨厌太阳！
我在外是个很外向的人， 但我的心里住着一个很黑暗很内向的我。
我真的很希望可以找到一样能够让我真正的快乐起来的人。。
到现在都找不到。。
自从离开了教会，离开上帝后，我感觉我整个人是黑暗的。我做了不少的错事。而且还是明知故犯。
做了很多工，赚了很多的钱。可以吃很多名贵的， 买名贵的东西。但，心还是空虚的。
回到家要面对着破碎的家庭（父母两个都有很大的问题）。。。
我很想离开。。。。。快点离开。。。
我要出国。。但是。。。
出国后家里发生什么事我都不知道。。。是好事。。
万一真的需要我时。。。我怎么回家。。。。。

很烦。。
真的希望我的白马王子快快出现。。。帮帮我。。。安慰我。。。。
啊。。。。。。。。。神阿救救我吧

dreams

Everyone has their own dreams.
My still-unfulfilled dreams are:
1. dine in luxurious restaurants. At least twice per month. I don't like hot and non-classy places.
2. have a lot of branded stuffs and bags.
3. eat whatever I want to eat without having to look at the price.
4. go travel anytime I like. and don't have to worry about money.
5. candle light dinner.
6. surprises.
7. don't have to work but get money from hubby.

I want to go travel.
I think I am going to Pulau pangkor this coming june....
mom is still the best.......

Monday

A boring Monday.
Skipped morning class cuz I am tired after 3 days of work.
Continuously 3 days of high heels, in 4 layers of clothes. PC FAIR 1.
As a cosplay girl for Kingory online game.
But I guess nothing comes easy, just bear with it if you want extra income.
Nothing is easy in this world.
I'm sorry to my friends, who have asked me for jobs and never got any.
Just to let you guys know, all I can do is to get phone number or email address for you guys. The next step you need to do is to send profile to agent/client. If you get selected, congrats! If you don't, try again next time. Don't blame me for not getting any jobs. Cuz even I need to send in profiles together with pictures and vital stats: ep: (34C, 26, 36), weight and kg. Then I will go through selection and sometimes interviews. If I pass I get it.
And for the sales job that I do, not everyone can do it. If I ask you there, you don't have sales for today, you'll be sacked the very next day. So please understand. I don't want you to go around telling people that you got sacked or whatever it's. Or say that my jobs are so hard to do. If my jobs are hard, I won't be earning so much. I can sales hard, I can talk. I know not everyone can. Everyone has different skills and ability. I truly understand.
If talking doesn't suit you, don't sales. Try to do other things.
I can do all. From sales to promoting to showing.
If you can't sales, you promote, if you cant, you show. If you can't show, then promote. Be flexible.
Thanks!

I know I don't look good in above pictures because I was messy and sweating for the whole day. Imagine the crowd and the weather. Imagine the 4 layers of clothes I had to wear. I know I may not look the best, I'm not perfect, and I know it. And I know that I'm fat. so keep your disgraceful comments if you were to give any. thanks.

I'm very sincere during work. And sincere when applying for any jobs. I would state in my profile that I'm not a thin girl, I'm a little bit meaty. If you can accept, take it; if you can't, don't hire me. I don't wanna go there and then get sacked back home cuz i can't wear the uniform. So you people do the same okay! Don't fake height or weight or vital stats. It's very important.
Be sincere.

I'll have roadshows next month again. For London Weight.
I'll have other jobs coming!!
Sometimes when I receive calls for jobs, I see the salary is high, I will take it. So no more slots left. If the boss asks me to find friends to work together, I will inform my friends. or post on facebook.
If I receive calls and I don't wanna work, mostly because the salary is below RM100, I will open it to my friends. Usually not many slots too. please understand.

Opps

I know what I'm going to wear this coming Fri- Sun. A terrifying one.
But what to do. People say, there ain't no free lunch. Sigh.
But my tummy is not flat....! I will look even fatter in photos!

I'm going to dye my hair tomorrow, purely brown that's close to red. Yeah. Promotion. So I wanna try try = p then at 5pm I will head to Tesco Sungai Dua to work. Monday - Thursday = 5pm- 10pm work as supervisor for london weight management roadshow.
Then fri- sun work as show girl @ pc fair. fuuuyoh...gonna be so tired but in 7 days I can earn RMxxxx, it's private and confidential so cant tell. Sorry = (
Didn't plan to work for london this time because pc fair job pays me higher, and i have classes on weekdays. But my leader asked me to work and she would pay me a better price = ) so yeah, on...!! 5 hours per day only! = )
some more can get incentive and commission like normal! Yeah!!! money money come to me!! Muahahahahaha~~

hihi~~~

Going back to Penang tomorrow night.
Rejected this weekend's job including freshkon promoter @ Focus point and London weight management job. Too last minute so didn't work. Haha. actually I wanted to come back SP to get money from my parents = p
Just did some investment. Left with rm150 in my bank account. But it's temporary. Wednesday will get back some of my money.

Waiting for the coming PC Fair!! Haahahaha~~
Nice pay nice uniform but fat lady in it. LOL.
I'm trying to lose weight. Cut down consumption of food. Sometimes I fail. Cuz I like to eat. Sigh. NVM!!! haha. fat ma fat lo.......not like doremon can already!!

Byebye!!!!! I am so fat!!!