I am back from Singapore

Back few days ago but was too lazy to blog.
even now I am lazy to type things. Let all the pictures speak for me.
I didn't take a lot of pictures because I looked so horrible with my dark circles and fat eye bags=.=" somemore I look so fat in pictures. Fat in real life. Fatter in pictures... uh..... sorry okay!!! I promise I will get thin and then take many many photos the next time when I go there.. heheh...
deal? I won't upload all pictures that I have taken okay? Know what's laziness? know right? smart! Pictures are not clear bcuz my digital camera sucks. it's 6.1 megapixel and it sucks more than my phone does. hehehe... some more battery finished after taking a few pictures.. wth man

See, my kiddy way of dressing up.....

orchard road

On the way to hell

Merry Christmas圣诞节快乐。

Wish you all Merry Christmas first cuz I will be leaving to Singapore tomorrow so I don't get to wish you all on that day:(
Celebrate Christmas? Make sure you know the meaning of celebrating it. Or else it's almost useless... hehe....

Feel so sorry for my darling cuz I can't celebrate it with him and I'm not sure whether I can receive calls or smses there....
Sorry plz forgive me:(
I will miss you okay?

Bye, I will be back^^

SO Pissed off

I am so pissed off right now!!!!!!
My parents are so horrible!!!
The stupid old car is 10 years old and they don't allow me to drive out alone!!!! And the car is only stupid wira!!! such a lousy car somemore 10 years already........ stingy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got my license for months already yet I don't get to drive alone!!!
They want me to be a perfect driver but don't give me the chance to practice!!
I guess they don't know practice actually makes perfect?
Shallow them!!!!!
How can I be perfect without practice!!
So damn angry!!!

I banged my house's piano and the door just now=.="
So angry.... can't control my temper.....!!!
I think I will get high blood pressure at the age of 30 and die of heart attack at the age of 35 if I continue to stay in this house for another 10years!!!!
Must buy insurance so that at least I can contribute some money to my parents when I die!
Uh....
That's why I always wanna earn money money money money money!!!!
Money is all I need now!!!
When I have money I will be able to buy my own car and I can drive out anytime I want!!!!!
Why ain't I born in a very well-off family....!!! Why do I have to be their kid???
I guess if they were given a chance, they wouldn't want me to be their daughter as well! I guess life's just so unfair and complicated..
We always don't get what we want in life.......

My dream guy

The title must have given you a hint about what I am gonna post.
My dream guy.
Simply means that he only appears when I dream:(

It's a sure thing for everyone to have a target set in their minds about what they want in their partners and who they are looking for. Me either.

First, he must be
1. Caring, understanding, loving, romantic, respective and sweet.
2. Must be tall , the best is fair too. Do not have to be handsome, but pls don't be ugly.
3. Must stay calm even when problems are heading his way. Must be smart enough to solve all by himself but not giving up. Do not show his temper easily but use his wisdom to settle problems.
4. The best is a faithful Christian who goes to church everyweek and put what he learns into practice.
5. The best is a virgin. I hate guys who fool around with girls. No disco or clubbing(it's alright if you go just to socialise but you're not allowed to leer at sexy girls or have one stand stand! STRICTLY PROHIBITED!! HAHAHAH. HIV weih, I don't wanna get HIV or Aids), no smoking( I don't wanna die of lung cancer cuz I'm forced to be second-hand smoker if my man smokes. Wanna die? Please die yourself, don't bring me along. I still have a bright future ahead of me:P ),no heavy consumption on alcoholic drinks (Can drink but not until drunk, cuz you might never know what you will say and act after being drunk),
6. Sit me down and tell me my mistakes instead of throwing tantrums. Do not keep problems in heart, share em' to me. Do not scream at me, pls kiss me and tell me everything is alright when I am sad. Pls kiss me even when I am angry at you cuz it calms my heart a little. Always assure me that you love me and need me by your side. Always hold me in your arms.
7. Possess a good academic qualification. or at least educated. I don't like my man to be shallow. It's hard to communicate with morons.
8. BE GENTLEMAN and NO ego!
9. Must be from a loving family background. I hate shouting and curses.
10. Girls love surprises and you should know when to give em' right?

Will I be able to meet my dream guy? hehehe...

Alo, holiday is ending soon and new semester is gonna start on 5th January. Results will be out on 5th.... :(
I am failing Accounts for sure..
What else?
Hopefully all pass except for Accounts but it's almost impossible to fail only Accounts.
Just wait for the news about my results okay?

Holiday has been monotonous,
Sleep, eat, online, hang out then sleep.... << style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">My wishes for year 2009.
1. Get thinner(I wanna be 35/24/35), prettier and fairer. So that no one will criticize I am fat again.
2. Earn a lot of money to go shopping or if possible, buy my own car. ( I wonder how I am gonna do that, my parents and bf doesn't allow me to work. I guess I am just too lucky to have my loved ones to keep me by their sides always.)
3. Get better results and make sure I pass all subjects.
4. Start attending church services. Haven't been to church for months. I am a bad girl now:( Pls, lead me back to the right way.

So far only 5 wishes. Hope I can fulfill em'.

Girls, be wild!

I wonder why guys are always the ones who ask for sex but not girls?
We are all human beings and we are born with sexual desire!
Why silly people make it sound like only guys need sex but not girls?

Girls, be wild! take the first move ! Don't let guys feel superior!
Go fuck your guys 10 times a day, gogogo!
hahaha.......!

SEX~

Guys,
I seriously need your answer, pls leave comments to answer okay?
Pls voice out your views and be honest okay?

1. Would you mind if your wife is not a virgin anymore? Or you fool around with girls but still demand for a virgin wife?

Feeling sorry......

Damn you man, can you stop cursing your girl?
You swore to God that you would protect, respect and spend your life time with her.
You are not a man who keeps true to your words, you don't deserve my respect!

She has to bear with your disgraceful insults and your unpleasant curses for years but she still never leaves. Who and what do you think you are?
What's wrong with praising herself a little when she never gets a compliment from you? Do you have to rebuke her as if she were a dog? Why are you so harsh?

OMG I just can't believe my eyes! What I see hurts me!
OMG I just can't believe my ears! What I hear stabs my heart!

She is no longer robust, she is ill.
She can't take your nasty curses anymore.
Please give her a chance to live her life.
Please accept her for who she is although she is imperfect like everyone else in this world.
She can be ugly in your eyes but she is beautiful in the eyes of God. You don't have the right to criticize God's creation.
Recall those delightful memories that she has given you,
the hardships that you guys have gone through together.
She never complains; tribulations make her stronger.
She stands firm because of love.
But you?
How do you return her the love that you have received??

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How could a life be without love?
How could a person be without heart?

Everything is just so disheartening!!!!

I don't own a heart:(
I seriously don't!
Even if I do, my heart does not beat.
Even if my heart does beat, it beats only once in a blue moon.
My surrounding makes me a person without heart... without love...
without feeling....
I am inhuman..

Old d :..(

7.12.2008

I m officially 18 years old now.
Thank you for all the birthday wishes!
I received tonnes of them....
Thanks....!

Special thanks to my darling for the time, present and cake....
Mwaahh....
And thank you my AI REN - Sze Lynn for calling me at 1am++ to wish me happy birthday.

Hope that I can get more freedom and fly a little high....
Hope that my parents will not control me in everything that I do....

Love lessons

People, read and learn:) Is the text too tiny?
Well, It's
Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life...
Relationships work best when they are balanced.

I found this really meaningful. I dedicate it to you - sze lynn.
What's the point setting a guy our top priority when we are just an option in his life? We will end up getting hurt.
It feels greater to have someone to love us than loving someone.


THINK ABOUT IT!

My new phone

Remember I said I wanted to get a new phone?
And today,
I got a very cool phone for RM ...... ! Secret..
The keypad is so nice to press.. hahaha...
:P

This! For RM99! hahaha....*sadness*

Haha, goodbye w910i and say hi to !@#$%^& phone! hehehe...
This is just a spare phone la... I will get a new one next year...
I don't know which model to purchase so ended up with this...
ehehe...
it's cool also okay??
So cool that it doesn't have camera, 3G, MP3.....
hehe...

Monotonous life

When I complain about my boring life, I mean it!

Went out to check out phones just now..
Ended up getting really confused and unsure about which model to purchase =.="
I want a wide screen and a good camera phone so that I can take nice pictures to show people how much I am in love with myself.

I love ....
Myself....
I trust in...
myself....


There's always a mature side of me...

The cheeky side of me...

And,
(Only allowed to look at my eyes)

the alienated side of me:P
hahahaha...

The fierce side of me

I am back to Sungai Petani..
I feel so bored over here..
I will be officially 18 on 7th December!! yeah!! Finally 18!!
Means I can make my own decisions in almost everything without having to ask for my parents' consent.
My parents control over my life... They intervene in whatever things that I do... I feel like a bird without freedom:( I can't fly although I wanna fly so much... They cut away my wings... It's feels like they are living MY life instead of I am living my life...