Friday, February 27, 2009


Hihi,hihi,hihi,hihi, it's friday!! I got nothing better to do so I just snapped photos by using webcam:-p
Why webcam?
Bcuz I don't have a phone to take pictures!
I am using a damn lao beh(lousy) phone:-p

So bored la wei......

Tell me what to do.....

just now ah, lynn and chee keong came to find me for dinner.
=.="
then ah, lynn stim stim 1 dunno why.
always stim~~~
haaha
kept screaming non stop and saying "ma-de"
haaha....
siaoooo!
den ah.....
Chee Keong ordered rice but porridge was served instead.
He so kindhearted, didnt wanna trouble people to change!!
OMG! so he ate all...........!
whoaa....! I was like...............stunned
hahaha
SO full now, I ate laksa just now:-p
yummy!!!!


Boring friday.
I am going back to SP anyway.
^^

Thursday, February 26, 2009

A 4am post

Guess what time is it now? It's 4am.
I couldn't sleep as there are too many things springing up in my mind like a waterfall.
How I wish I were more ignorant.
I don't wanna be aware of things that are happening around me.
I choose to avoid.
^^
Like what I always advise me friends:"Stay away from avoidable hurt." If you wish you run away from hurt, just do it. Don't just stay away but run away. GOGOGO! RUNNNN!!!!!!!
I am alright, I am just alright.

My skin condition is getting bad due to sleeping disorder - Insomnia.

Currently listening to very emo Korean songs introduced by some friend.
They make me really emo. REALLY!

I have done my final exam yesterday and I think I did pretty well.
But I still won't get high marks bcuz I have darn low marks for attendance and coursework. Sigh. How I wish college life was more interesting so that I would have the motivation to attend classes everyday. but NAH.
Exam hall was freezing cold. I was shivering when I was answering questions. Geeez... Gimme a hug, come on.

Hanged out with Lynn just now.
Went Mr.Pot then McD again!!
Again!!
=.="

Good night people.
I mean, good morning people. But I should get some sleep now^^

c ya....!hahah

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Think before having kids.
Can you afford their living expenses?
Let's count my living expenses.

I have spent around RM1000 again this month.
Blame SIY(RM200), gym(rm99. Din go at all), gym cancellation fees(RM188), and some shopping in forever 21.

Supposedly only spent around rm 400 on food.
BLAME CELEBRITY FITNESS! STUPID!!!! RM200 FOR CANCELLATION FEES AND FEBRUARY MONTHLY FEES(rm100).....!!!!!!!!
Blame SIY too! But I am too fat I need it!!! hahaha...another rm200!!!
haih

Now I need a phone urgently some more!
****!
****!

Fortunately, i dun have to pay for gym anymore for the following months.
i dun have any commitments anymore! yeah

How can a family survive without more than rm 5000 income a month!!!!
one daughter needs rm 1000
4 kids need rm 4000
then wife le?
grandparents le??
dang!!!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

40 little secrets

40 little secrets..^^ ssshhh!
Message: 40 little Secrets
Be honest no matter what...

LET'S DO THIS TOGETHER

1. Who were your latest 3 inbox texts from?
..him, Lynn and Audy

2. Where was your PRIMARY pic taken?
..Don't remember. Why should I?

3. What's your family name?
.. Lim

4. Your current relationship status?
..NA until God shows me the right one. My relationships always end in a bad way. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Say NO to avoidable hurt!

5. Does your crush like you back?
..yea

6. What is your current mood?
..Lost

7. What's your pet's name?
..no pet

8. What color shirt are you wearing?
..black

9. Would you kiss the last person you kissed?
..Yea, why not?

10. If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
..Yes, a lot of things. How I wish I could change em' and make them better.

11. Have a crazy side?
..Definitely

12.Ever had a near death experience?
..Not really

13. What is something you do a lot?
..Sleep, online, eat, and go all moody.

14. Angry at anyone?
..not really.... Just upset

15. Do you wanna see somebody right now?
..Um........yes I guess?

16. Do you like drama?
..depends.

17. When was the last time you CRY?
..Don't wanna remember. Not long ago.

18. Who would you do everything for?
..No one. even if there's someone it would be God. Um..... Do everything for myself? yea... myself!

19. Who is your hero?
..I guess it should be God.

20. What is the one thing you notice first with the opposite sex?
..Body and height.

22. What's your biggest secret?
..Secret is meant to be concealed. It's no longer a secret when I reveal it.

23. Where is your ex?
..None of my business, I don't have to know.

24. Would you ever take him/her back?
..Nope. I deserve a better man.

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
..Yea.

26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
..Not in the mood for food or drinks

27. Do you speak any other languages?
..yeah

28. Whats your favorite smell?
..um. i dunno. lol.

29. Describe your life.
..Life sucks and it's meaningless. I do think of giving up. Sometimes I don't understand why am I on earth. Problems just come throwing directly on me and suffocate me. I need some air to breathe. I need someone to rely on. So? Do I sound pessimistic? Yea! Simply because I see no light along my path. Where's God?

30. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
..Nope.

31. Do you like the rain?
..Yes, when it's too hot. but don't ever rain when I wanna go out! I would curse the rain

32. What are you thinking about right now?
..Thinking about lotsa things. Why is my life so outta control? Why ?why? why..................!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH I am going insane!!!!!!!!

33.What should you be doing right now?
..Nothing!

34. What is your favorite memory?
..Those good times when I could feel God's presence everywhere.

35. What are you listening to?
..With All I'm - hillsongs

36. Who was the last person you told I love you?
..my good boy

38. Do you act differently around the person you like?
..No! I am who I am and I will be who I am. Leave if you don't like me.

39. What is your natural hair color?
..black

40. Who was the last person to make you smile?
..my boy.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

BIG SIGH

Going to bank tomorrow to withdraw money.
AGAIN!=.="
Haih.....
RM200 = Gym cancellation fees
RM200 = Pay SIY
Rm100 = Pay online

What do I need some more?

1. A new phone. bcuz I don't own a phone. So around RM1000?
2. New pair of sport shoes. Bcuz my adidas is 1 year old. Around RM300.
3. New specs. Bcuz my specs suck=.=" Around RM250?

=.="

Ai ya, phone, shoes, specs later on kay..... No needed yet
Now settle more important things first.
lol

How I wish money would fly down from sky
sigh.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Mcd!!!!

hihi, I am back.
Seldom blog now bcuz life is monotonous, therefore, nothing to blog about:-p
Anyway,
went to college today because we had "presentation" for study skills.
I wouldn't go if there wasn't anything that had to do with marks.
So,
I went for presentation without preparation:-p
how coool...
but everything went on smoothly without a hitch.
Except for some words lar, hahaha.
I couldn't pronounce "priority" all of a sudden cuz my tongue kinda like twisted.
What a joke..
haha... Priririty? pririty? prarity? ahha. How did I pronounce already huh?
Don't wanna remember. What a shame =.="
Retard=="
haha.
Our presentation time was really short bcuz I finished doing the slides in just 15 minutes:-p
Guess how many marks my group got??
It's 12/15 le....
Not bad compared to the other groups which got only 11/15 or 7.5/15
muahahahahaa........!
And not to forget, my group only consists of 2 members - me and lynn:-p
Sioknya......! The rest all consist of 5 members.
At last lecturer announced Top 10 students' names who presented well.
Walao.
She called my name - Catherine!
Unexpectedly, I was in her list too=.="
man, priririty? prarity? proririty?
how come? I didn't prepare for it at all and skipped some points because I was lazy to talk so much.

After class,
we headed to McDonalds again!!!!!


Lynn~~~~~~

I swear I will never take Mcd again.
I will not take Mcd that often again:-p
Because people usually think that slim and thin = pretty
slim + thin + no boobs = pretty also
hahahahaaha~~~~
Even the gurl is not pretty, as long as she is thin and slim, no boobs also people will say that she is pretty. Agree? Most of the guys do!! hahahaha.
How shallow
How frivolous
How ridiculous
But the world is like that la, what to do?
just accept the fact and move on.
:-p

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Valentine's Day people!

I am not gonna talk about my valentines! lol.
I don't share my love life to the others.
I only wish my readers Happy Valentines^^


I went back to SP on Friday right after class.
When I reached home my mother shouted " Why do you look so exhausted with your panda eyes?" when she saw me outside the house. Man, wait until I get into the house only say cannot arh? Why must always embarrass me in front of everyone?
lol...
I knew that I looked tired and I really was.
And I am still tired now! Have to go to bed after this post^^
The assignment... The problem...
I was not only tired but ...well.. many things.lol. Mixed feelings..
stuffs like that......

Anyway,
very ridiculous thing happened on Friday.
I managed to complete my assignment on Friday and thought that I just needed to print out.
But no,
No!
I forgot to do Blood diamonds comprehension. 20% for that okay?!! How could I forget....!
VERY FUNNY YET DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF.
So I rushed to the com lab after class and finished it up by myself in an hour.

yea yea.... I was moody and still overwhelmed by some news but I did not let my emotions to cloud my judgement. See, My EQ is high:)


Anyway, I went over my cousin's house at night and my little cousins were pestering me to take pictures with them. I did but deleted most of them because I suck in pictures(most of the time).


See, I am so happy my hair finally reached this length. Want it longer though :-p Sorry la, I look very pale I know.

With my cousin's daughter. What a good poser. lol.


There, my budak botak head
my baby:-p
He got his hair cut short to this "short" without telling me first!!
zzzzzzzzzzz
Well, he said it's cute so fine lor. cute lor. hahaha

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Fear


My sister asked me why all of my posts are about skipping classes?
I skipped again today. So what?

I don't wanna wake up because I am a "chicken" (means coward, not prostitute), I choose to run away from the world because the world is cruel, it is callous. I am not ready to confront it. Not when I have no one to guide me through. I know I will eventually lose to the world and collapse one day so I choose to hide.

The world is nothing fun. Whatever that's fun will eventually come to an end - crack of the doom.
Have you guys ever pondered about these questions? Like,

1. Why am I on earth? Is there a God or the earth just formed by itself?Like, big bang? or anything?
2.Where am I going after life?
3. Look at all the wonderful things, look at our body, our cells, our body structures, our face, all things on earth. Do they really come by themselves? Or there's an omnipotent God who created them?

I know some people just don't give an account into these things, including me. But now I am starting to worry as I know that the world is going to end soon and where am I going after that? Will it just end there? Or there's something more after life? Something even better ahead us?

I am still finding the answers. When I find em', I will share with you guys alright.

Stay tuned. This is important although I may sound a bit silly to even mention about em".
Blood....... I know you like it......


18-22.2.2009
There's a revival service in Penang Christian Centre. I should remember to go! I should find a way to go:) To ease my heart. Get ready to experience the love of God. They say it's very hard to invite this speaker and since she is coming, I should not lose this opportunity.
8pm ya...weekdays....
I have to write it here just in case I will forget about it.
And I so have to remember to bring my Bible back to Penang.

I realised that, things that I was chasing after didn't give me the secure and happiness that I was looking for.

So now I'll hunt for my eternal happiness and unending love.
So here I go..

As the Lord says: "Stand firm in this slippery world"
There are many tempting things bring me far away from where I belonged.
Because I couldn't stand firm in this slippery world.
I give chance to the Devil to intervene in my life and I rot.
I love the world more than my Creator.
The world is so much of fun and it's full of excitement.
But, where am I going after the world ends?
Where am I going after my life ends?
Where?
I can't be sure, and you can't be sure where you are going too.
So I am going to search for it.
And when I find it , I will share with all of you.
Wait for my good news.

I will do whatever it takes just to find my life. My life.
I expect things to change in my life.
And I wanna be different.
I can do it, trust me.

But my blog will go all boring and I guess no one would like to read again??
But hey, this is what gives me peace and real happiness. Don't you wanna know? Can you expect me not to share good things to my friends?

Nothing is impossible with God.

Jeremiah 32:27 “Behold, I am Yehovah-Elohim over all flesh; is anything too difficult for Me?”

Matthew 17:20 “For truly I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you shall say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it shall move; and nothing shall be impossible to you.”

Matthew 19:26 “With God all things are possible.”

Mark 11:24 “Therefore I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them, and they shall be granted you.”

Mark 10:27 “Looking upon them, Jesus said, ‘With men it is impossible, but not with God; for all things are possible with God.’

Luke 1:37 “For nothing will be impossible with God.”

John 11:40 Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you, if you believe, you will see the glory of God?”


  • He says in His word in 1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your burdens upon the Lord because He cares for you." Satan is bringing to your mind things of the past to bring you down. You need to take these bad memories and give them to Jesus. Yes, sin is what blocks us away from God. We think that God will not forgive us for what we have done in the past. I personally feel that way too.
  • Isaiah 43:18 states "Do not call to mind the former things, Or ponder things of the past" (Isaiah 43:18). What's past is past and we should learn to move on. There're many things ahead of us.
  • Again, this is God’s command to not focus on the negative but only on what is lovely and edifying. This is not a feeling but a decision of the will. Think positively all the time:) Good things are coming our way.

I found this really useful for me and it eases my burden a lot.
Trust it, it works.
  • What God wants you to do is give these burdens to him according to 1 Peter 5:7 and then focus on what is positive according to Isaiah 43:18 and Philippians 4:8-9. There is only one way you can increase your faith: by reading and obeying the Word. If you refuse to do that, that is unbelief and a doorway for Satan to bring more negative things of your past into your mind. By your refusing to do these things, your saying "Go ahead Satan, make me feel bad."
  • Isaiah 44:22 "I have wiped out your transgressions like a thick cloud, and your sins like a heavy mist. Return to Me, for I have redeemed you."
  • 1John 1:9 "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

Amen.
Peace^^

Monday, February 9, 2009

Geeez


I am online in the college library. Feeling so cold. As in mentally and physically.
I don't know what to do, what to feel or what to say.
I am just lost......
I know that there's nothing I can do to help, I can only pray and ask God for help.
Feeling disoriented.......
I never expected this to ever happen on me...
I don't know la....
It has already become truth so I should be ready to accept...
:(
Sleepless nights...
...........................................................................

I gtg byebyebye...............

Thursday, February 5, 2009

*Ahem*

I skipped class again for some reason which is meant to be concealed.
I couldn't wake up this morning bcuz I didn't have enough of sleep.
My whole body was all reddish at 4am++. Scared me to hell. I looked like an apple last night:(
Then my voice changed to be really seductive.
fever!!!!
Muahahahahaha...
sshhhh!
I was dizzy and lethargic.
Mandy and Szelynn claimed that I wouldn't go to college today but I shouted that I definitely would!
haha...
So this morning Mandy tried to wake me up by knocking the door.
I shouted:"I am not going to college!!!"
See,
I am always a loser when it comes to waking up early.



Wtf, the connection in my hostel fails to work again! I still have an assignment to do and the deadline is tomorrow! damn... it...! cannot online how to do??
so I am in KFC now:-P
Went Mcd for lunch and came KFC to online...!
wakakakaka.....!

My friends are going to club tonight and I can't go.zzzz
sadness...!

Gotta get back to do my assignment, c ya...!