free today

Woke up at 1pm..online.. and chatted with my sister(SKYPE) until 4pm.
After that went to prangin mall to have my favourite tomyam alone to have my brunch. yes. alone..My life is boring. As I don't make friends around. I've a lot of Hi Bye friends but I don't have very close friends. Because I find it hard to trust in people around me. So yeah, alone is not that sad, is it? What I like is staying at home all the time. I guess because home is where the heart is. Haha.

My fish nuggets with fries!

Tomyam...Damn nice. Damn spicy that's why I like it!

Done 5th semester.

There are 7 semesters for my Diploma course.
Done 5, 2 more to go. Not to count failed subjects in. Left 2 more.
Woohoo.
Done Micro and Macro papers.
I seriously cannot fail anymore for the next 2 semesters. Or else my course will be prolonged again!!
I wanna graduate faster and study 2 more years of degree!!
I don't wanna grow up, yet I wanna graduate faster. I'm contradicting myself.

Recently never took any photos so no photos to upload on facebook. Sad...

I just know that I'm finally relieved because exam is OVER!
OVER!!!

Yay~

5.8 gathering

Just came back from 5.8 (IT) class gathering.
Went to old town and chatted over there, then Adrian suggested that we should go Sunway Carnival to catch a movie. So after talking we headed to Sunway Carnival for "The lightning thief". It wasn't that bad but not so interesting either.
Anyway, 3 star for that movie.
After movie we headed to Auto City to have our dinner. But due to complaint from one of my ex-classmates dad, I had to drive her car back to SP. Then dropped myself back to my house, bid goodbye. Then went to pack porridge as my dinner.
I just realised that I'm so fucking fat. I seriously need to slim down = (


Here are some photos that I managed to snap just now. Just a few though.

Captured in the car when I was waiting for all to come.

Classmates

~XOXO~

Allen Saw went genting. left me alone. We planned to go back to Penang today. but he went to genting. sudden decision. I had to wait him for 1 more day. Don't get back to penang means no study. Shit, doesn't he know that exam is on next wednesday?
It's difficult to make him understand when he quit college himself years back!

CNY & Valentine

The weather is damn hot! I'm going insane of the weather!! I must turn on 2 fans when I sleep. One is table another is ceiling. My air cond is way to noisy, I don't wanna on it. LOL.
This year didn't go back to my dad's side, means no ang pao from there = ( Sigh....
But I do get quite a lot from my mom's side...

For valentine's part, I guess not many chinese celebrated Valentines this year as all of us had to go back to our own homes.
I'm realistic and materialistic. This I must admit because I don't think they are bad things. You cannot live in this world if you're not realistic because the world is realistic. So you are just being foolish when you don't wanna be realistic! If you're not materialistic, then don't study, don't work. Because we study just to get a better job that gives better pay in the future.
I call whoever that's not materialistic a moron.
Everyone is, just that whether they admit or not.

I like the bear, it's so cute.

Blue roses. One is dying soon. Sigh...nice but short-lived.

Happy Valentine. Thank you for the gifts.
I know I didn't give you anything. bluek = p

Happy chinese new year!!!!!

Reunion dinner tonight. My mom's cooking sucks. I don't want to eat at home.
Maybe going to relative's house tonight....
!!!!
tomorrow might be going to perak....
don't know....
my dad is weird. he doesnt feel like going back to his own home. WEIRD and BAD

Fuck my life.

It's a story about a girl who just drove like mad minutes ago. Not on highway but housing area. She was fetching her mother and 2 other siblings. She smacked her mother's lap then slammed the fucking main door when she reached home. She was shouting like crazy and acting like a lunatic. But she had all the reasons to do so.

PROBLEMATIC parents are so sickening.

No encouragement, no love, no support,
only curses, discouragement violence.

That's how I grow up.
No encouragement. Only discouragement.
No support, only sarcasm and criticism.
Whatever I do I don't get support from my parents.
Even the things that I do are actually good, they don't support.

Violence, my parents are not like anyone's else's parents. My parents are problematic. I mean it. They are sick. My dad is sick and my mom is sick.
and I m sick because I have sick parents. I'm so fucking angry!

Please DO NOT TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT THE 2 OF YOU. WHATEVER THINGS, PLEASE FUCKING SETTLE YOURSELVES. I'M NOT A JUDGE I CANNOT JUDGE. You guys wanna divorce just do it. It's fucking non of my fucking business. I am so sick of you guys. I am so sick of my mother. can you stop telling me to find a rich man so that i won't suffer in the future? can you stop telling me your husband treats you unfairly. I know it and I have eyes to see it myself. you don't have to repeat and repeat. it's so fucking frustrating. i have got enough of it i don't need anymore. don't come and tell me that you suspect your fucking husband this and that. whatever he wants to do, it's non of my fucking business.
stop telling me about everything.

CNY is just 2 days apart and why everytime i come home i have the feeling of rushing back to penang immediately? i feel more peaceful i feel better there. at least i wont get heart attack, my temper wont go up. i wont get angry seeing the two of you with fucking arguements. can you fucking stop it stop it stop it???????????????????????????
why do i always have to come back hoping that i can feel the love of family but got disappointed when i go back. tell me why.
is it so hard for you guys to stop all the mess.
CIBAI
I hate the two of you.
if i have the chance i would push all of the family members to death then I jump down myself.
do you wish to see the ending.
i tell you
you guys make me fucking insane i can do whatever that's in my head. i don't care about the consequence.

stop telling me anything because it doesn't hurt me at all it just feds me up .

i will get high blood pressure 2 years later or maybe i already have it now.

I AM SO SICK OF YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

CAN YOU FUCKING FATHER AND MOTHER STOP ALL THE MESS.....!

CAN YOU FUCKING STOP TELLING ME ANYTHING.

DO YOU KNOW I HAVE NO ONE TO TELL MY STORY.
I HAVE NO ONE TO LISTEN TO ME AND NO ONE TO COMFORT ME AND GOD IS NOT THERE FOR ME
CAN YOU PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME MAD AND DO STUPID THING.
GUESS WHAT
I FEEL LIKE DYING
NOT FOR THE BOTH OF YOU
BUT FOR THE SAKE OF MY LIFE.
IT'S EASIER AFTER DEATH.
CAN YOU GUYS ACTUALLY STOP THE FUCKING MESS

8.2.2010

Haven't been updating anything because there's nothing to talk about.
Life's colourless because people around me don't make my life colourful.
Sad, isn't it?
Sigh.
Finally done all of the assignments. Both Macro and Micro.
It's time to relax! Well, study break is next week, which is on Chinese New Year. So I don't think I'm gonna read anything during CNY, I will be busy eating all the time. Heehee. After a week of break comes final exam. Sadness.


Wanna earn money and start doing something? It's tough.
I guess everything is the same. You want money, you gotta work for it. Nothing comes easy in our lives.
I should be graduating end of this year, but because of 3 papers, I've to prolong my course for another 6 months. Well, 2 subjects in short semester and only 1 in long semester. Fuck.
In Disted college, you don't get to resit, you only get to retake. Per subject is RM650-RM800.
The course fee of 24 subjects in 2years & 4months is already rm18000. Plus every semester resources fees of RM150 or RM250. Plus my accommodation fees (a lot) , and expenses of RM800(only food and shopping). PLUS my stupid failed papers. Sum up??? You count it yourself!

Sigh, life's tough but it's short. Life's like a movie, either you make it happy or sad. The choice is yours. hahahahahaa. Macro lecturer always says " the choice is yours"

Haylo

Hello people, I'm in my new house now ^^ Like it and enjoy being in it.
Short semester is coming to an end. I haven't prepared for it. Like never.
Well...
This post.....
is gonna be a weird one....
My bf Allen Saw has been lying to me about small and big things since the day we got together on 9th November 2008.
I'm not satisfied with him and I'm quite fed up.
Whenever I ask, he'll treat it as nothing. and escape from my questions.
Fuck. I've had enough of it.
Enough of people telling me this and that. Although just small matters but I don't want him to lie. Not even a lie he can tell.
Fuck. He just never will understand how much I hate liars.
just escape and escape all the fucking time. I've had enough.