Fuck my life.

It's a story about a girl who just drove like mad minutes ago. Not on highway but housing area. She was fetching her mother and 2 other siblings. She smacked her mother's lap then slammed the fucking main door when she reached home. She was shouting like crazy and acting like a lunatic. But she had all the reasons to do so.

PROBLEMATIC parents are so sickening.

No encouragement, no love, no support,
only curses, discouragement violence.

That's how I grow up.
No encouragement. Only discouragement.
No support, only sarcasm and criticism.
Whatever I do I don't get support from my parents.
Even the things that I do are actually good, they don't support.

Violence, my parents are not like anyone's else's parents. My parents are problematic. I mean it. They are sick. My dad is sick and my mom is sick.
and I m sick because I have sick parents. I'm so fucking angry!

Please DO NOT TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT THE 2 OF YOU. WHATEVER THINGS, PLEASE FUCKING SETTLE YOURSELVES. I'M NOT A JUDGE I CANNOT JUDGE. You guys wanna divorce just do it. It's fucking non of my fucking business. I am so sick of you guys. I am so sick of my mother. can you stop telling me to find a rich man so that i won't suffer in the future? can you stop telling me your husband treats you unfairly. I know it and I have eyes to see it myself. you don't have to repeat and repeat. it's so fucking frustrating. i have got enough of it i don't need anymore. don't come and tell me that you suspect your fucking husband this and that. whatever he wants to do, it's non of my fucking business.
stop telling me about everything.

CNY is just 2 days apart and why everytime i come home i have the feeling of rushing back to penang immediately? i feel more peaceful i feel better there. at least i wont get heart attack, my temper wont go up. i wont get angry seeing the two of you with fucking arguements. can you fucking stop it stop it stop it???????????????????????????
why do i always have to come back hoping that i can feel the love of family but got disappointed when i go back. tell me why.
is it so hard for you guys to stop all the mess.
CIBAI
I hate the two of you.
if i have the chance i would push all of the family members to death then I jump down myself.
do you wish to see the ending.
i tell you
you guys make me fucking insane i can do whatever that's in my head. i don't care about the consequence.

stop telling me anything because it doesn't hurt me at all it just feds me up .

i will get high blood pressure 2 years later or maybe i already have it now.

I AM SO SICK OF YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

CAN YOU FUCKING FATHER AND MOTHER STOP ALL THE MESS.....!

CAN YOU FUCKING STOP TELLING ME ANYTHING.

DO YOU KNOW I HAVE NO ONE TO TELL MY STORY.
I HAVE NO ONE TO LISTEN TO ME AND NO ONE TO COMFORT ME AND GOD IS NOT THERE FOR ME
CAN YOU PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME MAD AND DO STUPID THING.
GUESS WHAT
I FEEL LIKE DYING
NOT FOR THE BOTH OF YOU
BUT FOR THE SAKE OF MY LIFE.
IT'S EASIER AFTER DEATH.
CAN YOU GUYS ACTUALLY STOP THE FUCKING MESS