22.7.2010

It's my semester break of 3-4 weeks!
Of course I wouldn't NOT grab this golden time to earn money!
So here I'm, in Pearl view hotel, Butterworth again!
Gonna start working tomorrow. Same old company - London, Yun Nam and New York. You guys know right? I've been working for their events for more than a year.
Right after my 3 days job I'll be heading to Alor Star. Awww, I love to work so much!! Because when I work, I get money. When I don't work, I spend my time doing nothing. Sleep and laze until 2pm in the afternoon, sleep at 2-3am in the morning, which is pretty unhealthy! And when I work, I wake up at 8am, get ready and go for buffet breakfast, 10am start to work, 12-1pm lunch, 6-7pm dinner. By the time I get home, it's already 10pm++, no time for supper anymore. Then I wash up, head to my bed! See, damn healthy right! Healthy + money = awesome! LOL

I've nothing to do right now, so I come to blog.
Gonna go read newspaper later. My dad stopped subcribing for newspaper like a year ago since he has the internet. He basically reads news through the net! So being his daughter, no newspaper means I won't read news! I've no self-discipline, I online means I'll bullshit on facebook, chat with my friends, stalk and STALK! hahaah

Anyway, I'm still considering whether to continue to work after Alor Star job or rest? I guess I will continue to work unless if someone wants to go KL have fun with me =p I don't wanna laze at home squandering my precious time away. I rather spend money, or earn. LOL.

Something happened in these few days. I don't even give a fuck so I don't feel like mentioning about it again on my blog. Those on my facebook should know. Anything you guys wanna know, ask me personally! I'll tell you guys the story. It's damn ridiculous and plain absurd. You guys will sweat all over. LOL. My parents didn't even wanna get involved in this small matter, they asked me to settle myself because they thought it was just a small matter. What's with the fuss? I don't understand too. Ask them. hahaha. Since young, whenever I encounter problems, my parents always want me to settle myself. As a result, I'm really independent. I don't need their help, I can stand on my own feet. All the time. I think I'm awesome. Some people still need their parents to call and fuck me(by using @#$%^@#$% words)! haha, Grow up please. If you're that great, show me your face, ask your parents to back off! Their action made them seem uneducated and blurting out all vulgar words and refusing to listen to my explanation made them absurd. First time in my life ever met this kinda parents. Hoho, wanna listen to story?? Ask me personally =) blog and facebook are very dangerous places.

lonely!

Got my pictures from kerry. all pictures are kinda blur. hehe. probably bcuz of setting problems.
More on facebook. Can go have a look if you want.


I'm such a loner. Online in a cafe for hours! ALONE.
Some people may think I'm weird. I've friends, I can just ring them and ask them to come and accompany me. But I choose to be alone. I don't know why.

I'm in SP now. It's so boring.
I wanna be more sociable! Have more friends, get more jobs and know more new friends.
Gonna be outstation for 10 days starting from Friday.
3 days job at BM then 7 days at Alor Star. Company new opening! Weee, get to work! Hope God bless my sales can be high high high ^^

All I wanna slim down...
Slim down...
and take good care of my skin!!!
Sleep before 12am!! Nah bullshit, I can only sleep before 12am when I've to work the next day! hahaha

k la, have to go home now. It's 7pm by the way. Dad cooked but I think homefood sucks. Feel like escaping but no one to go dinner with me.
I guess because when I was in relationship I stuck too closely with bf all the time. Now that I'm single, I feel disoriented! LOL.
Whatever, I can change that! =)

Exhausted!!

Continuously 6days of jobs.
Add 2 more experiences to my "working experiences" list. Woohoo. More than 20 experiences already.
Worked for Gillette for 3 days then CARS international for 3 days.
I realised I've become immune to feet-ache!! haha.
As in, I don't feel pain anymore wearing heels for the whole day. Maybe because I'm too used to it already. Been standing and working for events for almost 2 years!!
Finally get to rest for a few days back in SP, have to get ready for my photoshoots on 24th and 25th! I guess I'm just gonna go with light make up!! =)

Waiting for kerry to send me pictures of CARS international pictures. lalala~~ The above pictures were taken by using my phone. Kinda blur and ugly though!!!

Anymore jobs?? I am so damn picky. per day less than RM80 means I won't work. I think I should just accept. Something is better than nothing right?? Better than sitting at home lazing around. Shouldn't be so lansi!! LOL

Wanna go KL shop for clothes la =( haih.... grrr.... who wants to bring me there???

你珍惜过我吗？

如果有一天我消失了，请你不要再找我。
我的离开不是因为我不爱你而狠心的放下你，而是你不珍惜。
机会给了你一次又一次，我看不到你的改变。但我还是再给你一次又一次的机会。你的改变，还要我等多久？
我真的很累，我怕有一天，我走了，我就不再回头了。
我每次跟你说你的缺点，你听进去了吗？你有改吗?没有。
我说你说得我很累。
我怕我有一天累坏了，选择离开了。。
我懂离开才是对的，但是我却一直再给你机会。。我在等着你的表现。。但是我看不到。你还是一样的那么爱说谎。。
难道别人跟我说的“你是不可能会改的，因为你从小到大都一样，没有变过”是真的？？？是，我只是一直在给你机会表现。我蠢

Burdened

6th semester ended today. Financial Management paper 2-5pm just now.
I was expecting an A for it but now I'm hoping to pass the paper. I just screwed it because I didn't study for the theory part which carried 30 outta 100 marks. All blank. And I'd forgotten about how to do those calculations.
So yes, keeping my fingers crossed for a pass.

Came outta exam hall at about 3.50pm, rushed to Regal Hotel for a job briefing, gonna start working tomorrow. Some brand ambassador for Gilette razor.
Gonna work for 2 days, rest for a day, then start my CARS job @ Queensbay.

I wanna get more jobs, make myself busy and think less about your lies and your pasts. I need to get you outta my mind. You don't deserve a stay in my mind. I need to get rid of you! SOON!
I hate the feelings of waking up feeling empty and burdened and cheated. And what I think about all the time is your lies lies lies and think of what else do you lie. I'm tired. Very tired. Perhaps you don't realise how tired I've become.
You went out with your friends last night until 4am++, I knew it. Someone told me you were with him. This morning I asked you what time did you reach home, you said 2am. I asked you again, one last chance, you said 2.30am. After that I told you that I knew where you were last night, you converted whole story and told me in another way. I'm so sick of your lies.
You said you'd change for God's sake. I don't see any changes. Even small matters you lie. How do I believe in you again?
I know that there're still a lot of things which you haven't told me.
I'll find out one by one by myself.
I'm tired...
I know I'm not handling this too well. I should just cut this relationship off. Like, in a cruel way because you weren't lenient when you lied.
I can do it one day....!!!
I believe I can...!
You're a disaster, a virus and a disease!!! You're horrible!

10.7.2010

Time flies. Few more months to new year. Means I'm getting older. I'm so scared...
haih...it's already July now...
End of semester already.
Left one more paper - Finance on Monday which I haven't prepared for it at all.

Thursday after finishing my Organizational Behavior paper in 45mins, I rushed to Queensbay mall for a job interview. Then rushed back to SP for a job briefing.
Then Friday, woke up at 7am and rushed to work until 2pm. After working, rested and then rushed back to Penang to gather my girls for another briefing...
This morning woke up at 6.15am...Then went to work...
Car had some problem. I don't wanna mention it anymore. Ended up have to call Mandy to fetch me...! LOL...
Anyway, good pay and easy job ^^ Thanks to my SP and PG girls who helped.
SP- everlyn, fion, chloe
PG-kerry, may, mandy
Millions thanks!
then there's no need to thank the supervisor. his pay is too good! LOL

tomorrow only study for FM la...now feel so lazy and sad

3am; 4th July 2010

It's 3am, guess where am I now?
Online in greenlane Mcdonalds.
Have been taking mcd meals for a few days cuz it's a place to study.
Too noisy that I can concentrate on my studies.
A place to escape from my comfortable room and bed.

Operation management final test is tomorrow!
Being the last-minute-girl, I've to mug hard a day before exam!
Always enjoy myself for the whole semester and suffer only for a day.

I miss SP so much... Miss the hot house, the freaking weird weather and cafes! Miss my friends... Miss my mom who nags all the time....
But I can't go home even after my final. Gotta work, for 2 events... then go for photoshoots...
= ( Don't know when I can get home to get my July allowance.

I'm gonna take 5 subjects next semester if possible.. so that I can graduate faster!!! So what to do after graduation?? Looking forward to working life! haha. I'm sure after I work for a few months, I will feel like going back to university again!

event jobs event jobs...please come to me...more more more events needed..... i didnt work for the whole June...! No extra income for savings!! I have to reach **k by end of this year!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!
If i take 5 subs next semester, my **k target gone before hand. Cuz if there's class on friday, means i can't work for any!! =(

HELP.....

Photoshoots coming soon...what should I wear, how should i give flattering poses? how do I pose in front of a few photographers!!! argh...i need to learn all these.... and hey, make up!!!! I don't know how to do a full make up.....!!!
now I've learned how to put on eyelashes, then what about lower lashes and eyeshadow!!!and face rebalance....????

someone teach me teach me!!!