30.8

Went to class this morning at 11am.
I COULD wake up! and lynn skipped class!! hahahaaa
She wanted to be a pig at home so no choice. I went alone!!
Came back, cleaned my house. Those annoying ants!!! Urgh!! Can never stop coming to my place!! No matter how hard I try to murder all of them..

Tomorrow is Merdeka!!
So what? LOL. Should have gone back to SP today then come back tomorrow. since I haven't been back for about 1 month + already. And I won't be back for the coming months ( I guess ). Sigh. All because of jobs. But I wanna work so badly. Don't know why.
A lot of companies still owe me my salary.
Some men still owe me money. Pretty huge amount. But it's okay as long as they return me one day. (hopefully soon)

Jaz beer roving team will start this Wednesday. So from September to October. I'll be working 5 days/week. 4 hours at night, BUT for saturday, I've to suffer. Work for Liese first then rush to work for Jaz Beer... 11 hours of working time per day. Will be so dead but I like it. Just for a month anyway! Won't kill!!

I just hope those who owe me money, esp the uncle(not my ex's dad, don't misunderstand,I'm okay with lending him cuz I get 2% of interest every month), please return me my money as soon as possible. And I want it as soon as possible because I'm not charging any cent of installment. I used my whole 2009, scrimped and saved and worked my ass off for that amount of money. HAVE a heart and please return to me as soon as possible. Don't ever try to cheat my money. Or else KARMA will haunt you!

I'm being too good for not calling you and harrying you to return me my money. I've been way TOO good. I only smsed you. Some times. Once in a while to ask about the money. I know you're using my cash to row other businessess or other investments. I don't mind at all. But please, have a heart. I hope you're reading this. But I know you won't! Because everything between us remains private and confidential. I respect you as an adult, I hope you respect me as well.
Just return me soon. No matter what you do with the money I don't care. I just wanna receive the amount I should be receiving. THX

绝望

如果你不能对我好，那请你放手让我走。不要让我们彼此难受。
一次次的给你机会展现自己，一次次的被伤害。
唯有两个字 - 失望。
我还能说什么？
从sp开车来到这里briefing,我在做工。你的briefing时间4pm,我的工八点就放。叫你等我放工，你却说：“我一briefing完就走。”听了很气！！但我还能说什么？
有时觉得自己真的很傻。
那么多好条件的追求者，我竟然可以为了你放掉我要的幸福。而你？给过我什么？这一年多来，你给过我什么？? 一大堆的谎言。
我跟你在一起，你的promise一个个都没有做到，你说话时只会说得很好听。
有两个字 - 失望。 快要绝望了。真的。
我已经很努力在把你给放掉。
请你不要那么自私好吗？你不能好好爱我，那请你放我走好吗？？

爱情真的可以拿来做比较？
问你为何当初为了追求我放弃你三年多的感情。你只会说：因为你漂亮，聪明，生意上可以帮到我。而她像粪，思想不成熟, 什么都帮不到你。听了我并没有感到开心。我感到可悲。
如果爱情可以这样拿来做比较，那我一年多前已经离开你，去寻找我要的幸福。我在生意上可以帮到你？那请问，在每一方面，你那一方面可以帮到我？？
做人有时不可以那么自私。只想到自己。那我呢？？我的好处是什么？？被你利用？？？
在追求我时，还骗我说你已经单身快一年了。我信你。到现在才知道，原来自己是有多么的蠢！！
被你骗了那么多东西。到头来还给你那么多的机会来伤害我自己。
我看，世界上最蠢的人是我了吧。
给我朋友知道我这么蠢，他们一定骂死我。

但是， 真的。我有心也无力了。
我们不适合，
你喜欢活在谎言中，而我喜欢光明，我喜欢诚实！！

请你放我走。
你让我过得很痛苦。
请你放我走好吗？
我每天都很辛苦。
你每一天的伤害让我真的累坏了。
我不行了。
过了我们的roving.请你放我走。。。
你可以去hiao女生，add女生，tiao女生，我不管。反正那是你喜欢做的事。肥瘦高矮美丑，通通你都要！
你的事。。。我没有力了。。。
我人也老了。快要二十了。
是时候安定自己慢慢找个好男人了。
找个不会对我撒谎的男人。
而你快要二十五。
我真的希望你以后别再骗你的未来老婆。
因果报应。要永远记住

26.8 Thursday

Weee, no class tomorrow. It's public holiday!
That means I can sleep until 1pm!
I skipped 2-3 classes this week. I think 2.
I couldn't refused to wake up this morning cuz I wanted more rest.
Well, basically I was having a real sweet dream with someone I like.
Well, not exactly the one I like but I imagined that he was the one I like. I woke up when I was dreaming half way and then went to toilet to pee. Then went back to sleep, continued dreaming!! The second time, the guy is different =( but same story!!! Why different guy!!! LOL.

I'm so stupid since when I become like a little girl who goes crazy about a man? Well, I'm just kidding anyway! hahaah.

Tomorrow brunch will be oat with Milo. Dinner with a friend.
Saturday work, after work go fill up RM50 petrol. Haih...

Sigh, my previous job was short of RM76, so I think I need to pay by using own money!! =( It's okay. Should be my mistake.

Life

Life doesn't always favour us.
Sometimes life doesn't go the way we want it to go.
Sometimes we think this is the best for us, but God foresees the future, something greater is gonna happen. And we have to let go of this first.
Somehow I still wanna believe that everything happens for a reason and that there's always a God there watching over me, leading me step by step invisibly. It may sound crazy but at least it acts as faith healing. Psychology controls, remember?

Whatever comes around goes around.
We must learn to accept bad things and learn how to solve problems instead of expecting that everything is just good and alright.
Always be ready to accept bad results or criticisms because they make us grow even faster. Whenever we fall, the process of getting up again is teaching us not to fall again the next time.

Life is full weirdos, sickos. Life is not always full of people we adore. Living life is tough. But if living life is easy, it's not life.
The world is slippery, people are doing things that are beneficial to themselves. They don't care about the others as long as they are getting profit. We must be able to differentiate who is good and bad and get rid of those bad ones.

Friends.
There're true friends, there're friends who friend with you only because they can get something from you.
Open your eyes and see clearly. Get rid of those.
Treasure those who are always be there for you, who will be there for you even when you're left with a piece of shirt without a cent.

Love.
Love hurts. Love always fails.
Don't ever believe in love. Love ends.
Unfailing and unconditioning love only come from parents and perhaps God(if there's any).
Treat your parents well, obey them, be good. Before it's too late.
They are the ones who have always been there for you since young, since you were born, take care of you. Stand up for you when you get treated unfairly. Be there for you when you need. Teach you every word that you're speaking now patiently.
There ain't no love like theirs.
Be there for them when they grow old.
Be there. Take care of them. Stand up for them.
When they grow up they tend to lose their senses and memory. Be there, teach them again patiently like how they used to teach you.


Yes, I'm talking all these to myself. These are the things that I need to learn. I know I've been a bad daughter. And it's hard to change my attitude. But I realised my mistake before it's too late.

I need someone there, to guide, to lead, to fill the emptiness in my heart. I feel that by earning lotsa bucks can't give me hapiness. Deep down in my heart I long for something more. Something that gives peacefulness, hope, and future. Something that fills up the empty up.

Monday 23.8.2010

Hi readers, I'm back.
Busy with job last Saturday and Sunday.
I slept at 2am last night. Surprisingly, I managed to wake up this morning for 11am class! But what was the point when I went to class without paying attention AT ALL?
Well, as long as I don't get barred.

Received another call for an event. Definitely gonna work for it.
Blog is not a safe place to reveal too much of details since everyone has access to it.
I realised that I become more secretive as I age. People ask me how much I get paid for working for this or that. Usually I don't wanna answer. That's because I don't feel like telling people and get slandered as a return that I show off. And to me, salary is private and confidential. No one should know about my salary and how much I'm earning. This is to avoid future misunderstanding and gossips. I've had enough. Salary thingy, I only tell my best friends or those who are associated with my jobs.

Being secretive is good. Sometimes we don't have to answer every question that's asked. We just have to keep quiet.
You can see that sometimes I post some posts on facebook, I'll delete it afterwards. Life's too short to be filled with gossips and misunderstanding. Life's just too short to be misunderstood all the time.

Anyway, I still haven't found suitable candidate for an upcoming event in Penang. Whoever wants to work, please email me loveof2c-s@hotmail.com.

Friday 20.8.2010

I was the one who took this picture.

hohoho, now I'm in.

Yesterday went to work for Jaz beer. It was some dinner event and we went there to serve drinks to VIP.
It was just 2 hours ++ job, but feet hurt due to heels. LOL.
I haven't got pictures from my staff, so I'm just gonna show pictures taken by my phone. only 2.

I love the uniform so much. It's so pretty! haha.
A day before this job, I found 4 girls to work, but last minute all couldn't work. So chose another 4 to work with me!
Encountered some problem after work. Which I don't think I should share it here.

Today is Friday, skipped class. Woke up at only 1pm. Bathed myself, went to meet Kah Chun at Gurney Plaza. Went to Kim Gary for dessert then Nando's for... ... Lunch or dinner? It was at 4pm!
Now I finally believe my dad that Nando's is not good. I thought he told us Nando's sucks because he didn't want us to spend 20bucks on just a 1/4 chicken! LOL. He is right. Nando's sucks. To me.

After Nando's, drove back home and took my sampling stuffs then headed to Mcd's. Met Jayee. Trained her for the coming event.
I believe she'll give good piece of work... After training, went over to Gurney Drive for Laksa. OMG, I thought I promised myself not to take dinner? Again, I failed. As usual.

Tomorrow gonna work for Liese <3 weeeeee...... Hope everything is fine.... ^^
I hope this semester results will be fine. I don't pay attention at all during lessons ( as usual ) So I hope I won't neglect my studies because of events.

I believe I can handle both. Working is for the experience. Management skill, leading skill, communication skill, human resource, how to handle people and all. I'm studying all of them and putting them into practice. Working isn't all that bad. It's a good way of spending my leisure time. At the same time, I earn money and gain more experience for my future. All gonna be useful! I realised that after I work, I know how to manage my expenses better. That's called budget management skill. Knowing that money is hard to earn, I spend less on useless things. See, I'm learning all these pratically and theoritically!!! And yes, when I work I meet with all different types of people, weird ones, funny ones, liars, braggers, etc. As a result, I understand people better. Who says working is not good?? Your brain must be peanut-sized. LOL

Monday blue

Skipped morning class. Personnel Management.
I was too tired to wake up. I hate myself for being so lazy. This is the second week of semester and it's the second time I skipped class!
I will make sure I don't skip anymore classes this week.
Can't wait for this weekend's job!
Gonna work for Liese. Some really famous hair products!
Anyone who's interested in buying, can come and look for me in Watson, Gurney. I'll teach you how to use. And the bubble hair colour is definitely amazing! It's just like shampooing your hair! I'm definitely gonna spend some money buying hair styling products!
And yes, at the same time, I'm working as supervisor for a sampling in Jusco, Queensbay. Since I've a job in Gurney, I can't go over to Queensbay, so I've asked a friend to help out to snap promoter pictures for me. See, 2 jobs at the same time. Luckily this job is supervisor job, just need to go have a look, snap pictures. OR else, I'll have to pass the job to other people. Pheww~ Luckily I've Joanne to help out, and of course I pay her =) This supervisor job will be 3 continuous weekends. My Liese event is an on-going event. Which will probably be 4-5weeks. I wish it would be longer. Cuz now I can't work on Friday anymore(cuz of that 1 class), so I can only look for Sat and Sun jobs.
Uh, Sat and Sun, usually just sampling job! Hope to get more supervisor kang tao as I don't like to be sampling promoter!

Anyway, Liese uniform looks good! I'll take pictures and post up here.
Recently gained weight. Probably due to the collagen I'm drinking. Anyway I've stopped. Horrible. I'm fat enough I can't be fatter anymore or else I'll lose all of my job opportunities! LOL

Life's pretty scary, isn't it? Betrayal, lies... Whao.. Scary.
I'm starting to feel scared when I tell people my stories.
I feel scared when I make complaints.
But I always have 2 persons to share my secrets with. Lynn and Joanne. They won't betray me. They have never!
Other than these 2 friends, I feel I should be more secretive and keep whatever I feel in my heart instead of telling a thing!

12.8.2010

Classes have started. I was glad that this semester had no classes on Friday. But to my utter dismay, Monday's class changed time to Friday! Ah....! That means Monday only has 1 class, and Friday only 1 class to. 1 class per day makes me feel lazy and skip. Hope there will be changes again!! Classes on Friday means I can't work for events d =( Luckily now I have one confirmed on-going job which will be on every weekend. Phewwww

weeee~~

Semester gonna start next week, didn't really get to have fun this semester break! Keep working only. but it's okay. I like my busy life.

Have to decide what subjects to choose for this semester. whether or not to take 5 subjects! Shouldn't. Cuz I wanna work part time, earn more bucks. Don't wanna stress myself too much.....

All jobs offers come together, always at the same time. Sometimes have to pass to other girls to do.. sien nia.. if they can come at different time then sure I work for all! LOL

Now online in a cafe... kinda busy recently....
a lot of appoinments for hangouts...

2.8.2010

Time flies. Done my job, 3 more weeks of job to come.
Have to go back to college to take results this Friday then rush to work.
Hope everything is fine.
Been kinda frustrated nowadays.
Things that happened make me wanna change myself.
I believe I can change to be a better person everyday. I'm learning each day.

Anyway, I got nothing to write. Life's gloomy.