Argh, what should the title be?

Me and Yun Nam Hair Care's promoter.
Okay, she looks more tired than I.
I should have promoted Yun Nam, shouldn't I?
My hair is dark and long and healthy! hahahaha

There, that's me looking rather lifeless!
My hair is so long... Weeee~~~~

Hello, I am back. Just completed my 3-days job as London Weight Management promoter. Relieved.
That job was tiring because I had to do sales and convince people to buy.
Now I no longer have to stand there for the whole day and convince fatties.
Fatties looked really offended when I approached them to tell them about our weight management thingy. Come on, fatties can be thin too right? Why walk away when someone's trying to help? haha. Those skinny ones showed great interest in our promotion but they failed to get our vouchers because they are under-weight!
Sold a lot of Yun Nam's vouchers to guys aged 25-35! The reason why they brought from me was to get my phone number as return!=.=" What? You think so easy? Buy from me means I have to give you my phone number? What on earth? My phone number worth more than your life. So I lied that I don't own a phone!
Then a silly guy said:" Never mind, no phone I buy for you. Nokia fair is just in front. What phone do you want?"
Oh please, no, thank you! I don't want to use a phone! hahaha.
White lie(I mean I lied)! I do need a phone badly. And I certainly want to own a better phone. But a phone as a gift to get my phone number is bullshit! As I mentioned earlier, my phone number worth more than their lives!

I wonder why men nowadays experience very serious hair-falling problem! They have huge holes on their heads. So I suppose that's like a punishment! Guys always find holes to *uck when they are young so they get freaking big holes on their heads as a punishment! Holes that they get are way bigger than the holes that they use to find to *uck!
Hahaha.
Please take note that I am not saying every man on earth acts that way. I am only saying majority of them.
So yeah, majority of the men on earth experience from hair-falling problem when they grow old! Hahahahaha. See, it supports well, doesn't it?

Haha, no class today! So I am lazing around!
Woke up at 12.30pm and got a call from my dad.
He asked me when is my sem break, he wants to book air-plane tickets for us to go overseas! WTH, I don't get to go because I still have classes and exam on June and July. How disheartening! Hug me please? :(

Got another job as a promoter again this weekend @ Giant.
:(
How great it is if I were born to be a billionaire's daughter. I wouldn't even bother to go to work!
How great it is if I were born to be a generous daddy's daughter. I wouldn't even sacrifice my flabby legs to wear short skirts to work!

Depressed!

Something that I consume contains depressant! I doubt! It makes me feel really depressed and lose appetite.
I have been taking Milo as breakfast, a bread or fruit as lunch, and sometimes a cup of Milo for dinner or nothing at all.
I feel hungry but I just feel too depressed to eat anything.

I am working, remember?

and today's meals:
Breakfast: Milo
Lunch: Some sushi only
Dinner: Milo

Yesterday's meals
Breakfast: Milo + oat
Lunch: a slice of papaya, carrot milk juice
Dinner: noodle cup

The day before yesterday's meals
Breakfast: Milk
Lunch: a bread
Dinner: half bowl of Mcd small porridge

Cool? Cool?! Don't learn from me. It slows down body metabolism rate. By the time you get thin, you will start to follow back your normal meals and you will gain super fast. twice faster!
see I know that! But I just can't eat. I don't have appetite to eat. Why? I HATE FOOD! I HATE MCD! I HATE MYSELF EVEN MORE FOR OVER-CONSUMING THEM!


My job is tiring. No sales. =.="
Can die.
Full time for 3 days.
DIE!!!!!!!!!! Little food+ strenuous job = death!
Come and see me for the last time! I mean, times. LOL

Hair

I wonder why do I have so much of hair on my legs and hands? They are quite long=.="
Why?
I doubt my ancestors were monkeys then evolved into human beings!
Muahaha. Never mind. It's not like I am the only girl in this world with so much of hair grown on legs and hands right? My buddy Sze Lynn has very long hair grown on legs and hands too.

Classes have started.
Taking business statistics, business computing, accounting 1 and english for business and trade this semester.
Gonna be a tough sem! All are pretty tough subjects except for english for business and trade.
I have got jobs to do for 4 weeks! Continuously!
Gonna be really tiring but I am enjoying it. It's better than sitting down not knowing what to do the next right?

Anyway, I will be working @ Gurney Plaza tomorrow as London Weight Management promoter @ Old Wing. It's a 3-days job anyway.

So, see ya^^
Get back soon.....

very upset!

SERIOUSLY, I AM GONNA STARVE MYSELF.
I DON'T CARE IF I DIE AFTER 20 DAYS.
I *UCKING HATE MYSELF
I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF
I HATE LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I *UCKING HATE MY LIFE.
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY CAN'T ANYONE UNDERSTAND ME
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
WHAT SHOULD I DO
WHAT CAN I DO I HATE MYSELF I WANNA KILL MYSELF I WANNA FIND A WAY TO DIE I WANNA DIE I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF. *UCKED UP LIFE.
WHY CAN'T ANYONE KNOW WHAT I WANT
WHY IS LIFE SO HARD TO LIVE ! I DON'T WANNA LIVE I AM VERY DEPRESSED I AM VERY VERY LOST I AM VERY ANGRY I M FEELING DISORIENTED I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I FEEL LIKE CUTTING MYSELF AND I WANNA SEE MY BLOOD.
I WANNA MAKE MYSELF SUFFER I WANNA TORTURE MYSELF
I DON'T CARE IF I WILL STILL BE LIVING BECAUSE LIFE IS TRIVIAL LIFE IS MEANINGLESS LIFE SUCKS LIFE IS FULL OF CRAPS LIFE IS FUCKING EVIL LIFE IS MAKING ME TO BE REALLY SICK .
WHERE AM I,WHERE'S MY SOUL, I WANNA TORTURE MYSELF
NO ONE EVER SEES THE REAL ME I HAVE BEEN COVERING MYSELF WITH A MASK FOR YEARS. WHEN CAN I TAKE THAT DOWN. NO ONE EVER UNDERSTANDS MY FEELINGS NO ONE EVER LOVES ME NO ONE EVER DID. I HATE MYSELF WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY AM I ON THIS EARTH. NO ONE EVER KNOWS HOW I REALLY FEEL INSIDE. NO ONE EVER SEES THE TRUE ME. NO ONE EVER KNOWS I AM DEPRESSED DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART ALTHOUGH I MAY SEEM CHEERFUL. I HATE MY LIFE I HOPE I AM NOT LIVING I AM JUST A JUNK I AM USELESS I AM NOTHING WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY IS LIFE SO HARD TO LIVE WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY I FEEL LIKE DYING I FEEL LIKE DYING
I WANNA CUT MYSELF BY USING A KNIFE I WANNA CUT MYSELF I WANNA SEE MYSELF BLEED I AM MORE HAPPY THAT WAY I WANNA CUT MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I AM FUCKING ANGRY WITH MYSELF WHY AM I LIKE THAT WHAT AM I SAYING WHY AM I ACTING LIKE THIS I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO EMOTIONAL I AM GONNA CUT MYSELF BECAUSE I AM STUPID I REALLY AM I AM REALLY INSANE I AM CRAZY I DON'T DESERVE A LIFE I WANNA DIE I WANNA DIE I AM GONNA TORTURE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF
I HATE MY MASK WHEN CAN I TAKE IT DOWN AND START LIVING FOR MYSELF BUT NOT THE OTHERS. WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN WHY AM I LIKE THIS..................................

It's Saturday

Yes, it's Saturday now. Everyone must be out to have some fun and get drunk tonight. And I? I am just staring at my laptop screen thinking of what to do the next hours.

New semester is reopening on Monday.
The happy thing that gets me jump up sky-high is - I don't have any classes on Monday. *yeah*

Took my results yesterday. I got an A(cgpa4.0) for Academic English which I thought I wouldn't get an A for it because I got freaking low marks for my coursework! Horrendously LOW!
Like, 6/30 or 12/30 ONLY for coursework? Um.. What about attendance? I rarely attended classes! I skipped at least one English classes once a week. AT LEAST ONCE. hehe. See, attendance doesn't matter that much although it was 10marks!! ahhaha. I found an excuse to skip more classes! :-p
Let's skip together!!! hehehehehhehehe.......
Anyway, I did pretty well for Oral-sex test and Final. That's why I deserve the A!
hahaha.
=.=" but..... I could get a better grade if I did all of my coursework and attended all classes!
Always too late for everything. Nvm. What's past is past, try again next time!

And, got A-(cgpa3.67) for Study Skills. Didn't do well for my in-class test! A- only...
SOB SOB....


I got myself really drunk at night because I was disappointed by my crappy results playful. hahaha. I drank whisky and beers like water for the second time! I puked like crazy after that and my whole body was tomato-red in colour. I drank way too much. I walked like a zombie and looked like a vampire! hahaha.
Exciting huh! Wanna try? LOL

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I looked through my camera pictures since I got nothing better to do. And I found this little thing!
hey, that's me, a stretchy rubber band!

This is my little sister! I took this picture years ago! Apparently, she looked so much better last time with her strawberry hair style!

My sister, dad, brother and mum.
Picture taken a year or 2 ago.
Sister's strawberry hair so farking cute.
Dad still looks the same now.
Brother looked skinny in this picture but he is very fat now! His tummy is bloodly 31inch! SO FAT! I have to broadcast to the world. hahaha.
Mum was fatter last time, now thinner.

My eldest sister and I. She is now in US. She can smile with her mouth-opened and teeth-shown but I can't. I don't know why God created me that way! I can't fathom! LOL

Guess who is this?
Me la!
hahaha.
*peace*
*peace again*

Botak head @ Nintendo counter. He has probably forgotten about his age. Look at his body size! Isn't it way too huge to be in Nintendo counter playing that small babyish thing!? haha.

Ya, he has totally forgotten about his age so he is hugging this little "lenny" to bed! hahahahahahaha.
I call that cute fluffy thing "lenny".
Awww, so cute! I am saying "lenny".

Too huge to hold 2 mini connettos.

Hahahahahahhahahaa not so bored after all!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOTICE

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SORRY.
THOSE WHO HAVE ALREADY SEEN IT, GOOD LUCK!
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This is not what I want. I am forced to:(
or else I would get killed.

Trust or don't trust!

I mentioned about some boy was so scared of his text messages being read by his girlfriend so he had to snatch away his mobile phone from her everytime she had his phone in hands!
And now,
the case is different and he's become very smart.
VERY.
The boy used to turn his phone into silent mode and his girlfriend went all ballistic about his cranky act.
So he uses an alternative way to deceive her. He leaves the phone in normal mode. But the intelligent thing is, he turns off ringing tone and message tone.
WOW, how smart huh!

So now the girl finds no reason to trust him.
So I call the girl REALLY smart for not trusting someone who is proven to be not-trustable!


Anyway,
who's going to work for the coming PC FAIR in Pisa, Penang?
Remember to drop me a message.
We could meet there alright^^
You can see me in real life and chat with me.
get my signature too if you wish.haha kidding la
get me a phone in order to get my phone number. haha. kidding okay!

What's wrong here?

Eh,
ask you guys something.

If you have a girl friend, will you be afraid to show her your phone? When your phone rings or message comes, will you hide away from her ? or feel scared if she sees your messages? Why are you feeling scared? Is it because you are cheating on her? or are you hiao-ing flirting around with girls so you are afraid that she might see all the text messages that you send?

So I suppose you are cheating on your girl friend or flirting around with girls when you hide your phone away from your girl... Am i right here? What's there to hide if you are not doing anything wrong right?

Girls,
will you trust this kind of guy who hides his phone away from you?
You try to take his phone when his message tone rings and he just feel so scared that he has to snatch his phone back from you!
OH FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
I FUCKING HATE THIS!~~~
Hey, come on tell me,
what's there to hide?
And what will you do if you find that he has been hiding things!???
OH FUCK!
Can you sense that something is wrong here?

You know,
I am a very straight-forward person. I always stick to the truth and I certainly HATE lies.
FUCK!
I am fucking angry!

I know myself better today! haha

Try : quiz box
Fun!

This is my results!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

- This is so accurate! I am straightforward. VERY.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

- Yeah, good-looking people aren't my style! So what if you are handsome? I still won't like you if you can't attract me in other ways!

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

- Not really!

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

- This is not true! Because I hardly fall deeply in love. Maybe because I never met someone I really love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

- Oh dang, people who know me well will say that this is so-not true! Bcuz I don't study!

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

-True, I am afraid of failures! they are demotivating!

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

- I am very concerned about my image! hehe. RIGHT! I care about how people think about me all the time and sometimes I think I have got no life. it's like, I am living for other people but not myself.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

-True~

Happy for 7 days.

My dad's gone to Vietnam for holiday.
He is on the train going to KL airport now.
Yeah....
I'll be free like a bird for 7 bloodly days. Only.
I can go wherever I like and be home later than usual.
Yeepy~
Flying~ Soaring~
Who wants to date me? Drop me a comment to inform me and I will get back to you soon.

Misery will begin after I pass these carefree 7 days.
I have to go back to study as next semester is re-opening on 23th.
I will be very busy because I plan to retake one of the subjects that I've failed for the first semester. It's probably Marketing because I am so-not ready to retake Accounting. Certainly hate the droning of Accounting lecturer and I hate her pronunciations.

I went back to my hostel 2 days ago for fun and found out that ants were walking around cheerfully like I never existed! I've got no idea why! They just came out from the aircond and walked around. So I looked around and found some plasters on my roommate's table. Without hesitating that those plasters were not mine, I quickly stuck all the ants to DEATH. Too bad, just after 15 minutes, more ants were out to seek revenge for the murders of their friends. Ahahaha. But their arms are too short to box with me. I killed all of them again by just pressing my fingertips against them! See, they sangat bodoh. oh ya hor, ants memang takda otak right? Aww, now I am sounding stupid! hahaha. so stupid!
See, it's just like human beings and God. Haha. We can hardly comprehend God's purposes and wills. Sometimes God clearly says NO to what we think is good for us. Well, I guess we should just let God be God as our arms are too short to box with God and our minds are too shallow to be able to think like God. Haha. He can just destroy us by his fingertips, but he doesn't do so because God so loves the world, and he gives us a chance to change and live again:-p


OMG, I think I left those ants' corpses on my roommate's table! I forgot to trash them because I was in a rush to go home....SORRY!
OMG, I think ants will still be lurking around because I did not destroy the breeding ground that night! I didn't know the cause!

No more scholarship!

My Merit Scholarship got revoked!!!
SOB...........!
Because I failed 2 subjects for my first semester and they just revoked my scholarship!
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE DiSTED! Why revoke my scholarship!!
If I knew earlier I would have studied for it!!!!
FUCK! Why didn't inform me earlier!!

Recent news - oh I am so mean!

I just watched NTV7 news and came across with the idea of condemning those who protest against Maths and Science to be taught in English.

Should Maths and Science be taught in English?
Yes, I think they should be.

- Some claim that they have poor command of English, therefore, fail to understand what teachers are trying to convey.
Come on, when do you want to learn if you do not want to learn now? Learn when you are in hell? Maths and Science to be taught in English is a good training ground for students. All subjects in College and University levels are in English. If you fail to understand First-Level education English, can you catch up when you are in Secondary or Third - level as all the syllabuses are so much tougher. Can you cope with that? NO! Booooo......! Stop lazing around and find a way to master English as it's essential. You are born with brain, so make full use of it! If it's not functioning, just cut it off! No point keeping a junk! The government has foreseen the importance of English. It's of no point to protest against such a wonderful thing that the government has made for us, Malaysians - to prepare us for the outside world. Protesting against a good plan is rather frivolous, isn't it? You can't go far without a good command of English.

Some teachers complain that they themselves can't even understand Maths and Science that are in English, so how can they teach their students?
Go back to sleep if you can't even speak fluent English. I wonder why and how you are qualified to be a teacher. So I suppose your interviewers are either deaf or blind. Improve yourself before going for an interview to become a teacher. I know the judges are VERY lenient but have you ever thought of your students' future? Can you sleep at night when you teach students the wrong thing? Like, "I are a girl" instead of "I am a girl"? Would you not feel ashamed of yourself?
Remember, youths are future leaders of the nations! If you teach them the wrong thing, they will end up leading the wrong thing. Now I understand why our country's development and progression are a far cry compared to the other advanced countries. It's because of we've got some fatuous leaders mould the characters of moronic people who just follow blindly.
So learn even if you are a 55year-old teacher who is going to retire in a jiffy. Things are updating day-by-day. The world is getting more advanced; people are getting more and more intelligent. Why limit yourselves the chance of acquiring more knowledge? You wouldn't wanna be left behind and still stand there doing nothing when the world caves in! There're still a lot of rooms for improvement. Come on, free yourselves from your cage and see how the world has become. LEARN and emerge as a better person! Be up-to-the-minute!


I don't wanna continue anymore, I am so mean.
I sound really spicy I know!
I scared people come whack me when I go out or lock me in jail.=.="
But I LOVE TO BE OUTSPOKEN. I like voicing out my views.
Being outspoken does not make me a bitch, does it?

ROTTING

Rot at home!!!!!!!
I am rotting!!!
ROTTING....!
No where to go !!
Life is boring, therefore, it sucks.
LOL..
come on,
my parents are paranoid.
they don't allow me to drive car out alone!
HEY I AM A GOOD DRIVER KAY..................
Argh...
just trust me!! TRUST ME!!!!!!!!!!!
Spend my semester break doing nothing!
How sad....?

Mercy

Catherine's talking about mercy.
Yeah, mercy.

Rich people who have got no idea where to spend their money,
you can always choose to do some charity.
Help those who are in need.
Bring happiness to them and make them smile.
God will bless you.

Help.... needy people..........
Like, ME.
YES, I AM SAYING "ME".

I am seriously skint.
People ridicule me when they see my phone...! My RM99 phone!!!
zzzzzzzz....

hahahaha,
you can drop me a comment if you wanna support me financially and I will get back to you!!!!
Muahahahaa.........