22.12.2010 ; 1.45am

Wondering why am I this late? Because I just fetched my mom and siblings home from Christmas carol and I had quite a heavy supper after my MCDs dinner.

And yes, I'm back to SP. Finally get to rest for a few days after my seem-to-be perpetual events and exhibitions. I will be going to KL for 3 days this weekend and the very next day when I'm back I've to continue with my event. 4 weeks of exhibitions to handle.

This!!! is what I'm handling. Stressful and tiring. But definitely learn a lot and apply what I study into practice. I love my life now. I'm happy to get the opportunity to actually step into the outside world to experience working life even before I graduate from my Diploma. Earn pretty good money and most importantly wonderful experience.

From promoter/show girl transformed to what I'm today I feel successful.

Many people still don't know what I'm doing. Basically I work for events. Not only this, but this is one of those events that I work for.

I've just done this last week and thanks to my beloved staff aka friend - Amely for her hardwork.

4 more weeks of this, 2 weeks at the hotel.

So, you should meet me in my hotel room =p

Just kidding....

Anyway I just got my hair straightened. My hair was straight I know. But I hate the frizziness. That's why I went to straighten it again. Got a pretty good deal!! I'm going to colour my hair as well, will make it really bright this time =)

Overspent this month. I guess because it's December!!

I need facial so badly. Pimples are growing all over my forehead and I feel youthful again even after hitting 20!! LOL

I guess that's all for now!!

30.11.2010 ; 01.00

There's no word to describe my feelings right now.

Blessings are overflowing. More and more good things are coming my way.

I'm done with my finals. And I'm pretty confident that I'll pass all 4 subjects. Left 3 more for my Diploma. Then I'm done. Probably to America. I will have to check out airplane tickets real soon. I have a great feelings that the trip is not gonna work out.

Now talk about what I do everyday?

I don't go back to SP even it's my holiday because I've jobs to do in Penang.

Schedule is full starting from tomorrow to end of December.

In fact very happy for it because I don't have to spend my free time at home spending money and doing nothing.

Everyday wake up in the afternoon, then facebook, thinking of who to go for lunch with.

Everyone has their own lives to live. They have their own people. And I'm all alone. Shop alone, eat alone. Somehow I think I'm really pathetic. I've a lot of friends, a lot of hi-bye friends, a few close friends who have got their own lives to live.

But I'm glad. Everyone is happy. And I guess that's enough.

Hey morning world

It's 3.22am

I've just done a bit of my revision for International Marketing.

Will continue tomorrow.

I'm the laziest student. I skipped a lot of classes this semester, even when I attended, I paid no attention. I can't believe I can still be THIS last minute.

Study just a day before exam!! However, I find it useful, because I can remember everything that I read. Very fresh in mind.

Recently have been very busy with my events.

After 26.11 will be my rest days =)

But I'm very sure events are coming up.

I'll try my best to gain experience before I really step out of the world to work.

I'm a very independent and strong girl.

I won't be celebrating Christmas this year as I've a confirmed event to handle.

I feel so far away from God now.... More like an Atheist than a Christian.

Haven't been to the church for ages.

Will try to find out about religions during spare time =)

Hope everything goes on smoothly without a hitch from now on,

my studies, my events and so on....

Might be going to USA for 2 weeks - a month if schedule allows.

Sigh, graduating only next year July.

Ah, 1 subject for long semester.

What a waste of time.

Parents suggested that I should continue my degree and then go overseas to complete the last year. Still deciding. All children can't be leaving the home, can we?

=(

原来幸福就那么简单，是我把它想得太复杂。

我最近好烦。工事，学业，友情，没有一样顺利。

大考又要到了。。

我真的很惨。再不读，我就是准备Fail了。。!

哎。。。没心情啊。。

November

November is a busy month.

Just completed all my assignments and now final exam is looming around the corner.

Going crazy soon!!!

2 more weeks of events and I'm done and will rest for 2 weeks to prepare for final.

Only accept jobs after December. I can't fail any subjects!!

28.10

Time flies, October is now coming to an end. Soon, will be my 20's birthday. Then it's time to welcome 2011.

Staring at the laptop screen, thinking of memorable past, listening to classical music.

Only lack a cup of coffee with a good environment.

I could imagine me sitting alone in a cafe where nobody knows me.

Far away from my country,

and it's snowing.

Sitting there, drinking coffee, and thinking of my past, thinking of what I should do in the future.

I hate it when I can't move forward.

I'm always thinking of my pasts and how I wish I could change them.

I know I can't go back, I can't change whatever that has happened.

But...

Part of me...

is still missing the old times....

I feel like leaving, to a place where no one knows me.

Have been quite busy recently with endless assignments.

But still, I managed to find time for "emo".

I'm working on the last assignment right now. Obviously ran outta ideas, so I'm here blogging.

It's been long since I ever posted my photos on my blog,

here's a picture of me, taken by Lynn, in class.

My birthday wish for this year would be

1. whoever owes me money, faster return to me...

2. earn a lot a lot of money and gain more experience.

3. give myself some time to quiet down my mind, probably off this country....

4. 1 coach

5. get myself a good phone...

boring

Online in com lab right now. Nothing to do...
I'm exhausted. I don't know why I wake up so many times at night!!
Keep waking up. I hate the feeling. I feel tired but still I can't sleep.
Skipped monday and tuesday's classes.
Went back to SP last weekend, asked amely to replace me for my job, came back to Penang on Sunday.
Thought I was going to work this week BUT ended up event canceled for a week and only start next week. Wtf.
If I knew earlier I wouldnt have gone back to SP last weekend and would only go back this weekend. Earn less few hundreds, some more spent so much on petrol and toll. GRRRRRRRRRRR
I HATE THIS FEELING
over spent again for this month. it's only 20.10.2010 and i've spent my whole month allowance!!
I know I've money in bank but i hate it when I overspend

Weee~

I'm back!

Just done my F & N event.

It was really fun, I enjoyed myself. Edwin, Claudia, Catherine Yap, Amely, Albert, and Catherine Lim (me).

Job scope was to distribute free drinks to crowds.

Very easy job.

Never knew the feeling could be THIS great.

Adventurous.

I never knew I was this daring.

Awesome is the only word to describe my feelings.

Thanks a lot for the moment and memory.

I love the awkward feeling to the max!

It was once in a life time experience.

Never will it happen again.

I woke up after September ends, I realised that I've moved on. It's a great start.

Damn!

Class started at 11am. Went to college only at 11am, never punctual. always late.

1 more absence will get warning letter! So I can't skip anymore =(

I hate classes so much. But Stella's class is not boring, the way she lectures is kinda interesting.

After class, came back home, cleaned the whole house and my room, received a call from that lady.

Oh, did I mention about knocking a car when I reversed mine in front of Sunrise Mcd's? LOL.

Well, I saw no cars in my front mirror, so I reversed. *bang*

Damn, there was a van behind my car, I didn't see it! Waaa. Ghost covered my eyes man!

The aunty came down from her not-so-fancy van looking panicked, asked for AT LEAST RM200 for this!

I personally thought that the case is not serious, because my car didn't suffer from any "injury". So I told her her low-end van wouldn't cost that much, asked her to take down my phone number and when she wanted to fix it, gimme a call.

She even copied down my IC name, IC number, home addresses(sp & pg). =="

Went to see foreman with her just now.

And guess how much is the price to fix this??

Muahaha,

RM180!!!

Damn, I scrimp and save, barely get myself any TOO expensive food. Never really pamper myself with a dress which costs more than RM180.

And today I've to pay for a careless mistake that I made.

Bloodly RM180. I didn't really bargain with the foreman. He is her relative.

As I age, I realised that I don't like to talk too much to people like that. Friend asked me to bargain with her that I'm just a student, I also don't feel like talking so much to her.

After I heard about the price, I went into my car, took RM180 out, handed to her and just left.

RM180, can go for E & O buffet for 2 persons.

RM180, can get myself many nice dresses.

RM180, can go Genting for 2 days 1 night. Plus food some more.

RM180, can pump petrol for about 2 months!

But it's ok, just treat as I work for nothing for a day.

This kinda tragedy happens only once in a blue moon. Plus it's my first time ever knock on someone's car!

Anyway, Jaz Beer event has officially ended. We only took pictures when we went Alor Star.

I look drunk, but I wasn't. Face turned VERY REDDISH only everytime I drink.

With Nikel, and salesman. Nikel replaced my actual supervisor for 2 days(Alor Star)

Bye....! =)

Last Day of Jaz event

I'm sure I've never mentioned about this event of mine, which I worked for, for only a month. 12days in a month, 3 days in a week. It's Jaz Beer Roving Team. Job scope is to promote new label of that beer. And it's coming to an end today. It's my last day.

Well, speaking about this job, it's my first time of working for a beer company, and probably my last time. You know me, I care about what people think of me.

This job is actually nothing, but I'm sure you think of "something" when you hear "beer girls".

We are not allowed to drink, no hanky panky business will be tolerated. It's not as bad as it sounds. Beer girls.

We are students and we are working just because of the salary, HIGH salary compared to any other jobs. I want the money not because I need it so badly. It's not because I've to pay for my own college fees, also not because I don't get allowance from my parents. I do get. More than I need, but never more than I want. Money is never enough. I want the money for savings, for shopping, for branded bags, for travelling.

Let's not complicate things. And never underestimate any beer girls. My colleague - Ashley, just 18 years old, she is doing A levels in KDU, and guess what?? She obtained 11As for her SPM.

I at least obtained her half okay!!! So you see, not all beer girls are bad.

We all work for money, and no matter how bad the job is, try not to criticize. It's their choice.

If I were given a chance to work as a manager at this age, and get paid GREAT, do you think I would ever wanna work for a beer company? The answer is NO. I'm still young, and events are what I can work for right now. When I grow older, and possess an academic qualification, I will not work for events anymore.

Jaz beer is coming to an end, and guess what, I'm feeling kinda sad about it. I had fun working for this event although it's a bit tiring cuz it starts at 8pm ends at 12am. Or I'm sad because I know that "something" is ending tonight? Or am I feeling sad for the end of the event? I'm not sure.

This job, covers northern region except for sungai petani.

We went over to Bukit Mertajam, Butterworth, Sungai Bakap, Alor Star and Penang Island.

Salesmen were approachable and nice.

Definitely gonna miss this job so much.

Sigh, I've so much more to do.

I've to continue to work for Liese tomorrow 12am-8pm.

I've F & N roving team event to manage and work for. I'm the coordinator, but I'm also a promoter(I hired myself to work so that I can earn both sites!)

I've GAB event waiting for me probably this coming Saturday. And yes, event kinda like clashes with my F & N so I've got ready with my replacement.

I've E commerce assignment to complete, I've not really started it and I feel bad for STILL BLOGGING over here.

I've International Business assignment to complete before end of this month.

I've Personnel Management test, on 7th Oct, chapter 1-7

I've E commerce assignment 2 to complete and hand up before 2nd week of OCT.

I've Marketing assignment to complete, 28th Oct presentation and 4th Nov due date of assignment.

I've YET to photocopy some text books.

I've to get back to SP to fix my car.

I've to get back to SP to catch up with my best friend's life.

I've to hang out with my friends and socialise more.

I've to spend some time feeling sad about the "loss". Probably spend some time crying over the spilt milk. ALONE.

I've to learn how to swim, I've to do more exercise.

I've to get home to get my allowance from both my dad & mom.

Damn, look at my to-do-list!

You must be thinking that I'm insane, why am I pressuring myself at this age? Why am I not enjoying? Let me tell you what, earning money is enjoyable to me, that's why I work.

Building a strong relationship and nurturing love are not easy tasks. They take time.

Knowing that the decision that I'm about to make is RIGHT, but part of me is not letting it go.

I need serious help here.

I know, building trust is so difficult, together we built but he destroyed in a glimpse without guilt.

It hurts me. The pain of separation is haunting me. It's been almost 2 years. But it's the right thing to do. I know it. Why am I still clinging to the wrong path?

Please, I need to sleep. I need to rest.

I should let go of what's BAD.

TIME is everytime I need right now.

当你紧握双手，里面什么也没有；当你打开双手，世界就在你手中。懂得放弃，才能在有限的生命里活得充实、饱满、旺盛!

Think before you leap

I swear I'll think as much as I can before I make any further decision. I'm afraid and scared. I'm tired of love. I'm tired of changing bf.
It's really tough when it comes to choosing life partner. I'm tired of getting hurt and cheated. After failing so many times in my relationships, I realised what mom says is true. That's why I've to pick a guy who is her cup of tea. Get her approval and blessing.
For Christ's sake, I'll think a lot before making any decisions.

hihi ^^

It's Hari Raya eve. Wish all my malay friends "selamat hari raya". Happy and healthy always ^^
Everyone's having their holiday. Lynn's back to KL.
Friends are going to club tonight. And I'm going to work tonight = (
I know it's my choice, but I swear I wouldn't work for any beer events in the future. I'm okay with those events, short term like 1-2 days. NOT okay with a month!!
Hope I get double payment tomorrow!! Weeee.

I'm not gonna work that hard for next month. I'll rest and just concentrate on my assignments!!
Skipped so many classes this week. Especially morning 9am classes.
Just too lazy to wake up. I'm not scared of any subjects this week except for E- commerce!! Cuz lecturer's teaching style and her monotonous tone is really killing me!!

Went to watch Piranna last night with friends. A movie without ending!! It finished in about an hour or 1 hour 10 mins. Damn!!

The very rare teeth showing smile = D LOL

留得青山在，不怕没柴烧

永远要记住妈咪说的这句话：“留得青山在，不怕没柴烧”
提高自己的条件，不用怕没有好前途，不用担心未来老公条件不够好！所以我每天都在学习，如何去把每一件事情做得很好！
人越来越大了，开始觉得妈咪说的话越来越实在。以前还以为她很老土，不明白这社会的进展。现在开始明白她的每一句也是为了我好!没有人比妈咪更疼我了！妈咪，我答应你，只要你健康活着，我不会让你失望！！！我会好好读书，我会好好选个好老公陪我一生。

我会好好的处理每一样事情，我会看好好。
我会照顾自己。不用你们担心。我会把我人生的路走得好好的。虽然有时我会跌倒，但是我会自己爬起来。

我很轻松，总算有勇气把所有属于我们的照片拿了下来。我会很努力的把不好的事情，不好的人给忘掉。未来的日子会更好！
谢谢让我长大的他，让我知道我不能那么轻易相信男人。谢谢他的谎言，让我知道男人撒谎时有多么的恐怖！

tired

Slept at only 5am++ last night. Couldn't sleep well. Woke up at 11am++
Skipped 3 classes.
Gonna work tonight. It's so wrong to skip class for jobs. I know.
That's why I don't wanna work anymore. I wanna quit the roving team job already!
I'm so tired.
Live life easily can already don't have to expect too much. I'm fine as long as all of the people who owe me money pay me back as soon as possible

insomnia!

It's going to be 4am!! And I still can't sleep.
Suffering from insomnia!
Too many things on my mind... jobs, family, relationship...argh...
I don't wanna think that much I just wanna rest! My roving team starts tomorrow! 8pm-12am. I've class from 9am-4pm. Obviously not gonna attend.
Sigh...
Next time I hope I don't get jobs last minute. Not being able to find girls to work is the reason why I can't sleep! I'm the responsible type(when it comes to working, but not studying). When I can't finish my work I just can't fall asleep! But when I can't finish my studies or assignments I can sleep like a pig!

Damn!!! I'm sooo damn weird. I'm exhausted! I wanna rest so badly after September. Sep will be the month I suffer! After that I'll have to concentrate on studies and work only on weekend. Don't wanna stress myself too much. And I wanna go home so badly!! I miss you, SP!!!

I just wanna sleep! I wanna rest! I wanna earn money even when I'm not working. I'm lazy to stand for hours!!

30.8

Went to class this morning at 11am.
I COULD wake up! and lynn skipped class!! hahahaaa
She wanted to be a pig at home so no choice. I went alone!!
Came back, cleaned my house. Those annoying ants!!! Urgh!! Can never stop coming to my place!! No matter how hard I try to murder all of them..

Tomorrow is Merdeka!!
So what? LOL. Should have gone back to SP today then come back tomorrow. since I haven't been back for about 1 month + already. And I won't be back for the coming months ( I guess ). Sigh. All because of jobs. But I wanna work so badly. Don't know why.
A lot of companies still owe me my salary.
Some men still owe me money. Pretty huge amount. But it's okay as long as they return me one day. (hopefully soon)

Jaz beer roving team will start this Wednesday. So from September to October. I'll be working 5 days/week. 4 hours at night, BUT for saturday, I've to suffer. Work for Liese first then rush to work for Jaz Beer... 11 hours of working time per day. Will be so dead but I like it. Just for a month anyway! Won't kill!!

I just hope those who owe me money, esp the uncle(not my ex's dad, don't misunderstand,I'm okay with lending him cuz I get 2% of interest every month), please return me my money as soon as possible. And I want it as soon as possible because I'm not charging any cent of installment. I used my whole 2009, scrimped and saved and worked my ass off for that amount of money. HAVE a heart and please return to me as soon as possible. Don't ever try to cheat my money. Or else KARMA will haunt you!

I'm being too good for not calling you and harrying you to return me my money. I've been way TOO good. I only smsed you. Some times. Once in a while to ask about the money. I know you're using my cash to row other businessess or other investments. I don't mind at all. But please, have a heart. I hope you're reading this. But I know you won't! Because everything between us remains private and confidential. I respect you as an adult, I hope you respect me as well.
Just return me soon. No matter what you do with the money I don't care. I just wanna receive the amount I should be receiving. THX

绝望

如果你不能对我好，那请你放手让我走。不要让我们彼此难受。
一次次的给你机会展现自己，一次次的被伤害。
唯有两个字 - 失望。
我还能说什么？
从sp开车来到这里briefing,我在做工。你的briefing时间4pm,我的工八点就放。叫你等我放工，你却说：“我一briefing完就走。”听了很气！！但我还能说什么？
有时觉得自己真的很傻。
那么多好条件的追求者，我竟然可以为了你放掉我要的幸福。而你？给过我什么？这一年多来，你给过我什么？? 一大堆的谎言。
我跟你在一起，你的promise一个个都没有做到，你说话时只会说得很好听。
有两个字 - 失望。 快要绝望了。真的。
我已经很努力在把你给放掉。
请你不要那么自私好吗？你不能好好爱我，那请你放我走好吗？？

爱情真的可以拿来做比较？
问你为何当初为了追求我放弃你三年多的感情。你只会说：因为你漂亮，聪明，生意上可以帮到我。而她像粪，思想不成熟, 什么都帮不到你。听了我并没有感到开心。我感到可悲。
如果爱情可以这样拿来做比较，那我一年多前已经离开你，去寻找我要的幸福。我在生意上可以帮到你？那请问，在每一方面，你那一方面可以帮到我？？
做人有时不可以那么自私。只想到自己。那我呢？？我的好处是什么？？被你利用？？？
在追求我时，还骗我说你已经单身快一年了。我信你。到现在才知道，原来自己是有多么的蠢！！
被你骗了那么多东西。到头来还给你那么多的机会来伤害我自己。
我看，世界上最蠢的人是我了吧。
给我朋友知道我这么蠢，他们一定骂死我。

但是， 真的。我有心也无力了。
我们不适合，
你喜欢活在谎言中，而我喜欢光明，我喜欢诚实！！

请你放我走。
你让我过得很痛苦。
请你放我走好吗？
我每天都很辛苦。
你每一天的伤害让我真的累坏了。
我不行了。
过了我们的roving.请你放我走。。。
你可以去hiao女生，add女生，tiao女生，我不管。反正那是你喜欢做的事。肥瘦高矮美丑，通通你都要！
你的事。。。我没有力了。。。
我人也老了。快要二十了。
是时候安定自己慢慢找个好男人了。
找个不会对我撒谎的男人。
而你快要二十五。
我真的希望你以后别再骗你的未来老婆。
因果报应。要永远记住

26.8 Thursday

Weee, no class tomorrow. It's public holiday!
That means I can sleep until 1pm!
I skipped 2-3 classes this week. I think 2.
I couldn't refused to wake up this morning cuz I wanted more rest.
Well, basically I was having a real sweet dream with someone I like.
Well, not exactly the one I like but I imagined that he was the one I like. I woke up when I was dreaming half way and then went to toilet to pee. Then went back to sleep, continued dreaming!! The second time, the guy is different =( but same story!!! Why different guy!!! LOL.

I'm so stupid since when I become like a little girl who goes crazy about a man? Well, I'm just kidding anyway! hahaah.

Tomorrow brunch will be oat with Milo. Dinner with a friend.
Saturday work, after work go fill up RM50 petrol. Haih...

Sigh, my previous job was short of RM76, so I think I need to pay by using own money!! =( It's okay. Should be my mistake.

Life

Life doesn't always favour us.
Sometimes life doesn't go the way we want it to go.
Sometimes we think this is the best for us, but God foresees the future, something greater is gonna happen. And we have to let go of this first.
Somehow I still wanna believe that everything happens for a reason and that there's always a God there watching over me, leading me step by step invisibly. It may sound crazy but at least it acts as faith healing. Psychology controls, remember?

Whatever comes around goes around.
We must learn to accept bad things and learn how to solve problems instead of expecting that everything is just good and alright.
Always be ready to accept bad results or criticisms because they make us grow even faster. Whenever we fall, the process of getting up again is teaching us not to fall again the next time.

Life is full weirdos, sickos. Life is not always full of people we adore. Living life is tough. But if living life is easy, it's not life.
The world is slippery, people are doing things that are beneficial to themselves. They don't care about the others as long as they are getting profit. We must be able to differentiate who is good and bad and get rid of those bad ones.

Friends.
There're true friends, there're friends who friend with you only because they can get something from you.
Open your eyes and see clearly. Get rid of those.
Treasure those who are always be there for you, who will be there for you even when you're left with a piece of shirt without a cent.

Love.
Love hurts. Love always fails.
Don't ever believe in love. Love ends.
Unfailing and unconditioning love only come from parents and perhaps God(if there's any).
Treat your parents well, obey them, be good. Before it's too late.
They are the ones who have always been there for you since young, since you were born, take care of you. Stand up for you when you get treated unfairly. Be there for you when you need. Teach you every word that you're speaking now patiently.
There ain't no love like theirs.
Be there for them when they grow old.
Be there. Take care of them. Stand up for them.
When they grow up they tend to lose their senses and memory. Be there, teach them again patiently like how they used to teach you.


Yes, I'm talking all these to myself. These are the things that I need to learn. I know I've been a bad daughter. And it's hard to change my attitude. But I realised my mistake before it's too late.

I need someone there, to guide, to lead, to fill the emptiness in my heart. I feel that by earning lotsa bucks can't give me hapiness. Deep down in my heart I long for something more. Something that gives peacefulness, hope, and future. Something that fills up the empty up.

Monday 23.8.2010

Hi readers, I'm back.
Busy with job last Saturday and Sunday.
I slept at 2am last night. Surprisingly, I managed to wake up this morning for 11am class! But what was the point when I went to class without paying attention AT ALL?
Well, as long as I don't get barred.

Received another call for an event. Definitely gonna work for it.
Blog is not a safe place to reveal too much of details since everyone has access to it.
I realised that I become more secretive as I age. People ask me how much I get paid for working for this or that. Usually I don't wanna answer. That's because I don't feel like telling people and get slandered as a return that I show off. And to me, salary is private and confidential. No one should know about my salary and how much I'm earning. This is to avoid future misunderstanding and gossips. I've had enough. Salary thingy, I only tell my best friends or those who are associated with my jobs.

Being secretive is good. Sometimes we don't have to answer every question that's asked. We just have to keep quiet.
You can see that sometimes I post some posts on facebook, I'll delete it afterwards. Life's too short to be filled with gossips and misunderstanding. Life's just too short to be misunderstood all the time.

Anyway, I still haven't found suitable candidate for an upcoming event in Penang. Whoever wants to work, please email me loveof2c-s@hotmail.com.

Friday 20.8.2010

I was the one who took this picture.

hohoho, now I'm in.

Yesterday went to work for Jaz beer. It was some dinner event and we went there to serve drinks to VIP.
It was just 2 hours ++ job, but feet hurt due to heels. LOL.
I haven't got pictures from my staff, so I'm just gonna show pictures taken by my phone. only 2.

I love the uniform so much. It's so pretty! haha.
A day before this job, I found 4 girls to work, but last minute all couldn't work. So chose another 4 to work with me!
Encountered some problem after work. Which I don't think I should share it here.

Today is Friday, skipped class. Woke up at only 1pm. Bathed myself, went to meet Kah Chun at Gurney Plaza. Went to Kim Gary for dessert then Nando's for... ... Lunch or dinner? It was at 4pm!
Now I finally believe my dad that Nando's is not good. I thought he told us Nando's sucks because he didn't want us to spend 20bucks on just a 1/4 chicken! LOL. He is right. Nando's sucks. To me.

After Nando's, drove back home and took my sampling stuffs then headed to Mcd's. Met Jayee. Trained her for the coming event.
I believe she'll give good piece of work... After training, went over to Gurney Drive for Laksa. OMG, I thought I promised myself not to take dinner? Again, I failed. As usual.

Tomorrow gonna work for Liese <3 weeeeee...... Hope everything is fine.... ^^
I hope this semester results will be fine. I don't pay attention at all during lessons ( as usual ) So I hope I won't neglect my studies because of events.

I believe I can handle both. Working is for the experience. Management skill, leading skill, communication skill, human resource, how to handle people and all. I'm studying all of them and putting them into practice. Working isn't all that bad. It's a good way of spending my leisure time. At the same time, I earn money and gain more experience for my future. All gonna be useful! I realised that after I work, I know how to manage my expenses better. That's called budget management skill. Knowing that money is hard to earn, I spend less on useless things. See, I'm learning all these pratically and theoritically!!! And yes, when I work I meet with all different types of people, weird ones, funny ones, liars, braggers, etc. As a result, I understand people better. Who says working is not good?? Your brain must be peanut-sized. LOL

Monday blue

Skipped morning class. Personnel Management.
I was too tired to wake up. I hate myself for being so lazy. This is the second week of semester and it's the second time I skipped class!
I will make sure I don't skip anymore classes this week.
Can't wait for this weekend's job!
Gonna work for Liese. Some really famous hair products!
Anyone who's interested in buying, can come and look for me in Watson, Gurney. I'll teach you how to use. And the bubble hair colour is definitely amazing! It's just like shampooing your hair! I'm definitely gonna spend some money buying hair styling products!
And yes, at the same time, I'm working as supervisor for a sampling in Jusco, Queensbay. Since I've a job in Gurney, I can't go over to Queensbay, so I've asked a friend to help out to snap promoter pictures for me. See, 2 jobs at the same time. Luckily this job is supervisor job, just need to go have a look, snap pictures. OR else, I'll have to pass the job to other people. Pheww~ Luckily I've Joanne to help out, and of course I pay her =) This supervisor job will be 3 continuous weekends. My Liese event is an on-going event. Which will probably be 4-5weeks. I wish it would be longer. Cuz now I can't work on Friday anymore(cuz of that 1 class), so I can only look for Sat and Sun jobs.
Uh, Sat and Sun, usually just sampling job! Hope to get more supervisor kang tao as I don't like to be sampling promoter!

Anyway, Liese uniform looks good! I'll take pictures and post up here.
Recently gained weight. Probably due to the collagen I'm drinking. Anyway I've stopped. Horrible. I'm fat enough I can't be fatter anymore or else I'll lose all of my job opportunities! LOL

Life's pretty scary, isn't it? Betrayal, lies... Whao.. Scary.
I'm starting to feel scared when I tell people my stories.
I feel scared when I make complaints.
But I always have 2 persons to share my secrets with. Lynn and Joanne. They won't betray me. They have never!
Other than these 2 friends, I feel I should be more secretive and keep whatever I feel in my heart instead of telling a thing!

12.8.2010

Classes have started. I was glad that this semester had no classes on Friday. But to my utter dismay, Monday's class changed time to Friday! Ah....! That means Monday only has 1 class, and Friday only 1 class to. 1 class per day makes me feel lazy and skip. Hope there will be changes again!! Classes on Friday means I can't work for events d =( Luckily now I have one confirmed on-going job which will be on every weekend. Phewwww

weeee~~

Semester gonna start next week, didn't really get to have fun this semester break! Keep working only. but it's okay. I like my busy life.

Have to decide what subjects to choose for this semester. whether or not to take 5 subjects! Shouldn't. Cuz I wanna work part time, earn more bucks. Don't wanna stress myself too much.....

All jobs offers come together, always at the same time. Sometimes have to pass to other girls to do.. sien nia.. if they can come at different time then sure I work for all! LOL

Now online in a cafe... kinda busy recently....
a lot of appoinments for hangouts...

2.8.2010

Time flies. Done my job, 3 more weeks of job to come.
Have to go back to college to take results this Friday then rush to work.
Hope everything is fine.
Been kinda frustrated nowadays.
Things that happened make me wanna change myself.
I believe I can change to be a better person everyday. I'm learning each day.

Anyway, I got nothing to write. Life's gloomy.

22.7.2010

It's my semester break of 3-4 weeks!
Of course I wouldn't NOT grab this golden time to earn money!
So here I'm, in Pearl view hotel, Butterworth again!
Gonna start working tomorrow. Same old company - London, Yun Nam and New York. You guys know right? I've been working for their events for more than a year.
Right after my 3 days job I'll be heading to Alor Star. Awww, I love to work so much!! Because when I work, I get money. When I don't work, I spend my time doing nothing. Sleep and laze until 2pm in the afternoon, sleep at 2-3am in the morning, which is pretty unhealthy! And when I work, I wake up at 8am, get ready and go for buffet breakfast, 10am start to work, 12-1pm lunch, 6-7pm dinner. By the time I get home, it's already 10pm++, no time for supper anymore. Then I wash up, head to my bed! See, damn healthy right! Healthy + money = awesome! LOL

I've nothing to do right now, so I come to blog.
Gonna go read newspaper later. My dad stopped subcribing for newspaper like a year ago since he has the internet. He basically reads news through the net! So being his daughter, no newspaper means I won't read news! I've no self-discipline, I online means I'll bullshit on facebook, chat with my friends, stalk and STALK! hahaah

Anyway, I'm still considering whether to continue to work after Alor Star job or rest? I guess I will continue to work unless if someone wants to go KL have fun with me =p I don't wanna laze at home squandering my precious time away. I rather spend money, or earn. LOL.

Something happened in these few days. I don't even give a fuck so I don't feel like mentioning about it again on my blog. Those on my facebook should know. Anything you guys wanna know, ask me personally! I'll tell you guys the story. It's damn ridiculous and plain absurd. You guys will sweat all over. LOL. My parents didn't even wanna get involved in this small matter, they asked me to settle myself because they thought it was just a small matter. What's with the fuss? I don't understand too. Ask them. hahaha. Since young, whenever I encounter problems, my parents always want me to settle myself. As a result, I'm really independent. I don't need their help, I can stand on my own feet. All the time. I think I'm awesome. Some people still need their parents to call and fuck me(by using @#$%^@#$% words)! haha, Grow up please. If you're that great, show me your face, ask your parents to back off! Their action made them seem uneducated and blurting out all vulgar words and refusing to listen to my explanation made them absurd. First time in my life ever met this kinda parents. Hoho, wanna listen to story?? Ask me personally =) blog and facebook are very dangerous places.

lonely!

Got my pictures from kerry. all pictures are kinda blur. hehe. probably bcuz of setting problems.
More on facebook. Can go have a look if you want.


I'm such a loner. Online in a cafe for hours! ALONE.
Some people may think I'm weird. I've friends, I can just ring them and ask them to come and accompany me. But I choose to be alone. I don't know why.

I'm in SP now. It's so boring.
I wanna be more sociable! Have more friends, get more jobs and know more new friends.
Gonna be outstation for 10 days starting from Friday.
3 days job at BM then 7 days at Alor Star. Company new opening! Weee, get to work! Hope God bless my sales can be high high high ^^

All I wanna slim down...
Slim down...
and take good care of my skin!!!
Sleep before 12am!! Nah bullshit, I can only sleep before 12am when I've to work the next day! hahaha

k la, have to go home now. It's 7pm by the way. Dad cooked but I think homefood sucks. Feel like escaping but no one to go dinner with me.
I guess because when I was in relationship I stuck too closely with bf all the time. Now that I'm single, I feel disoriented! LOL.
Whatever, I can change that! =)

Exhausted!!

Continuously 6days of jobs.
Add 2 more experiences to my "working experiences" list. Woohoo. More than 20 experiences already.
Worked for Gillette for 3 days then CARS international for 3 days.
I realised I've become immune to feet-ache!! haha.
As in, I don't feel pain anymore wearing heels for the whole day. Maybe because I'm too used to it already. Been standing and working for events for almost 2 years!!
Finally get to rest for a few days back in SP, have to get ready for my photoshoots on 24th and 25th! I guess I'm just gonna go with light make up!! =)

Waiting for kerry to send me pictures of CARS international pictures. lalala~~ The above pictures were taken by using my phone. Kinda blur and ugly though!!!

Anymore jobs?? I am so damn picky. per day less than RM80 means I won't work. I think I should just accept. Something is better than nothing right?? Better than sitting at home lazing around. Shouldn't be so lansi!! LOL

Wanna go KL shop for clothes la =( haih.... grrr.... who wants to bring me there???

你珍惜过我吗？

如果有一天我消失了，请你不要再找我。
我的离开不是因为我不爱你而狠心的放下你，而是你不珍惜。
机会给了你一次又一次，我看不到你的改变。但我还是再给你一次又一次的机会。你的改变，还要我等多久？
我真的很累，我怕有一天，我走了，我就不再回头了。
我每次跟你说你的缺点，你听进去了吗？你有改吗?没有。
我说你说得我很累。
我怕我有一天累坏了，选择离开了。。
我懂离开才是对的，但是我却一直再给你机会。。我在等着你的表现。。但是我看不到。你还是一样的那么爱说谎。。
难道别人跟我说的“你是不可能会改的，因为你从小到大都一样，没有变过”是真的？？？是，我只是一直在给你机会表现。我蠢

Burdened

6th semester ended today. Financial Management paper 2-5pm just now.
I was expecting an A for it but now I'm hoping to pass the paper. I just screwed it because I didn't study for the theory part which carried 30 outta 100 marks. All blank. And I'd forgotten about how to do those calculations.
So yes, keeping my fingers crossed for a pass.

Came outta exam hall at about 3.50pm, rushed to Regal Hotel for a job briefing, gonna start working tomorrow. Some brand ambassador for Gilette razor.
Gonna work for 2 days, rest for a day, then start my CARS job @ Queensbay.

I wanna get more jobs, make myself busy and think less about your lies and your pasts. I need to get you outta my mind. You don't deserve a stay in my mind. I need to get rid of you! SOON!
I hate the feelings of waking up feeling empty and burdened and cheated. And what I think about all the time is your lies lies lies and think of what else do you lie. I'm tired. Very tired. Perhaps you don't realise how tired I've become.
You went out with your friends last night until 4am++, I knew it. Someone told me you were with him. This morning I asked you what time did you reach home, you said 2am. I asked you again, one last chance, you said 2.30am. After that I told you that I knew where you were last night, you converted whole story and told me in another way. I'm so sick of your lies.
You said you'd change for God's sake. I don't see any changes. Even small matters you lie. How do I believe in you again?
I know that there're still a lot of things which you haven't told me.
I'll find out one by one by myself.
I'm tired...
I know I'm not handling this too well. I should just cut this relationship off. Like, in a cruel way because you weren't lenient when you lied.
I can do it one day....!!!
I believe I can...!
You're a disaster, a virus and a disease!!! You're horrible!

10.7.2010

Time flies. Few more months to new year. Means I'm getting older. I'm so scared...
haih...it's already July now...
End of semester already.
Left one more paper - Finance on Monday which I haven't prepared for it at all.

Thursday after finishing my Organizational Behavior paper in 45mins, I rushed to Queensbay mall for a job interview. Then rushed back to SP for a job briefing.
Then Friday, woke up at 7am and rushed to work until 2pm. After working, rested and then rushed back to Penang to gather my girls for another briefing...
This morning woke up at 6.15am...Then went to work...
Car had some problem. I don't wanna mention it anymore. Ended up have to call Mandy to fetch me...! LOL...
Anyway, good pay and easy job ^^ Thanks to my SP and PG girls who helped.
SP- everlyn, fion, chloe
PG-kerry, may, mandy
Millions thanks!
then there's no need to thank the supervisor. his pay is too good! LOL

tomorrow only study for FM la...now feel so lazy and sad

3am; 4th July 2010

It's 3am, guess where am I now?
Online in greenlane Mcdonalds.
Have been taking mcd meals for a few days cuz it's a place to study.
Too noisy that I can concentrate on my studies.
A place to escape from my comfortable room and bed.

Operation management final test is tomorrow!
Being the last-minute-girl, I've to mug hard a day before exam!
Always enjoy myself for the whole semester and suffer only for a day.

I miss SP so much... Miss the hot house, the freaking weird weather and cafes! Miss my friends... Miss my mom who nags all the time....
But I can't go home even after my final. Gotta work, for 2 events... then go for photoshoots...
= ( Don't know when I can get home to get my July allowance.

I'm gonna take 5 subjects next semester if possible.. so that I can graduate faster!!! So what to do after graduation?? Looking forward to working life! haha. I'm sure after I work for a few months, I will feel like going back to university again!

event jobs event jobs...please come to me...more more more events needed..... i didnt work for the whole June...! No extra income for savings!! I have to reach **k by end of this year!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!
If i take 5 subs next semester, my **k target gone before hand. Cuz if there's class on friday, means i can't work for any!! =(

HELP.....

Photoshoots coming soon...what should I wear, how should i give flattering poses? how do I pose in front of a few photographers!!! argh...i need to learn all these.... and hey, make up!!!! I don't know how to do a full make up.....!!!
now I've learned how to put on eyelashes, then what about lower lashes and eyeshadow!!!and face rebalance....????

someone teach me teach me!!!

Takes one to know 1

you will never know how it feels until you really feel it yourself.
life sucks.
we all have to learn the hardway!
god damn it.
i just wish to disappear from this country to somewhere better and start a new life. seriously! sick of this place.
i have been saying this for god-knows how many times. being unrealistic knowing that i cant escape yet! i still have about 2 semesters to go before my diploma ends. no matter what, i have to make my life colourful. start painting my life with colours instead of stopping there whining about how awful and miserable my life is.
i gotta do something! i gotta do something!

Life

This post is all gonna be about "life".
I often rant about my imperfect life but today I'm gonna tell you how unfair life is when it comes to relationship.

I've had a lot of experiences and my experiences have taught me a great lesson.

I was treated callously, no chance given for me to prove myself. Why should I give you a chance to prove yourself which you just failed more than 5 times after you said you would change.
I was not forgiven for little mistakes I made, why should I forgive you for your serious offence?

Things that you did cannot be tolerated by anyone.

The wrong man

A relationship is about 2 persons.
To me, it's about the right man.
I've failed this part.
Because I've not dated the right man.
Foolish enough, I only found out more than a year later.
Foolish enough to be fooled for so long.
I'm the one who always warns my girls not to ever get into a relationship with the wrong man, but I'm doing it myself.

All I wanna do now is to leave my country and start a new life overseas. I want every shit to stop and change. How I wish my parents were filthy rich so that they could send me there anytime, anywhere I want. Too bad, I'm not a princess, I can't rule their mind. My family is chaotic, I wonder when it's coming to an end. I wish never. But what I can say to control my parents. Nothing!! It's useless.

Everything seems not right and I just....
don't wanna care anymore....

final is coming soon, I'm just gonna study and make sure I pass all subs, make sure I don't delay my graduation anymore so that I can leave faster!!!!!!

It's late.

It's late now. 12.18am.
I'm feeling empty, lost, scared, and just cold.
I wanna know what's wrong with me?
Why am I not afraid of death at all?
Why am I so pessimistic about the world, my life and just everything around me?
It's creepy, I can feel the emptiness in my heart. It's creeping my heart outta me.
I wonder, when can I find real happiness?
It's been too long since I ever felt occupied.
Nobody knows how it feels.
Nobody knows what I'm going through.
Because I remain silent, and I choose to conceal my sadness.
Yes, I try not to complain about anything anymore, because there are much more people in this world, suffer more than I do. My pain is not painful.

Sigh...
I need real happiness.
I need to feel secured and loved.
I demand for nothing more than just love.
Love me, care for me, shower me with attention.
That's all I want now.
I'm not just talking about relationship love.
I'm talking about an an awesome love from God, from my parents, and lastly, from a man whom I can trust in.

hi I'm back

Abandone my blog for quite some time. But realised there're still some people who visit my blog everyday. So yeah, I will continue to blog once I finish my final exam. I'll try to take photos, make my blog interesting. and I'll edit my blog pictures, pattern and layout and everything too!

Life's been sucked-up. Many things happened. My relationship...my family...
well, shouldn't be telling my problems in public. So, let it go. I guess I'm still feeling happy.

Anyway, I've been quite free recently. Cuz I don't accept jobs anymore. Tired of working! LOL. But I think I still have event coming up end of the month! I've been loyal to my company more than a year, gonna work for it and reject other jobs.

Just realised, final exam left 3 weeks. Gotta start revising for 4 subjects. Never paid attention in classes for this semester. I'm like so dead. No, I shouldn't say that I'm dead. Because at the end of the day I'll still be able to do great IF I start studying now...

Life's complicated isn't it??
When you're confident, people say that you're arrogant. When you're happy with your life and happy with everything, people say that you're too easily satisfied with yourself. Perasan, siok sendiri.. ETC.
When you're not confident and often complain and whine about your mistakes and life, people say that you're an asshole who's always complaining about every single, doesn't know how to appreciate anything...
SO, teach me what to do now???

So I've learnt a new way to cope with this, is to be silent. Don't defend and just keep quiet. Say anything you like, think anything you like.
I live a life of myself, not yours.
Life has ups and downs.
I've great times but I still demand for greater life. That's because I believe there's still room for improvement. I wanna make it better.
I've bad times and I complain about it. That's because I want myself to know that I don't like bad times and I want better times. I complain, express my feelings.

Well, I've also learned that, complaining doesn't work. But it's just an expression of how I feel in there. Sometimes friends are not there, and I just can express it through facebook statuses. Sometimes I don't wanna tell people what's wrong, I just keep quiet and be emo on facebook...

I seriously hope that I can leave Malaysia soon and get a better life overseas. Since there's no one else here to stop me from going anymore.
A cheating bf won't stop me, chaotic family won't stop me either.
I just want a new life, new environment, and new friends. That's all

byeye~

Leaving Sp to pulau pangkor tomorrow. brought very normal shirts only... not planning to take a lot of pictures there.. cuz i want everything to be simple = )
i have abandoned my blog for quite some time. a lot of things happen actually. just that i dont feel like writing = p so forget it

13.5.2010

Skipped classes again. useless student. haven't been attending research class for almost 1 month! yes, 1 month. I can't skip anymore next week. I am always lazy on Thursday!

Useless me

Skipped class again this morning. I feel so useless. I'm a student and don't act like a student..always waste money, don't go to class but go shopping! Useless me! when will I wake up? 2 assignments haven't done started!!!
Argh...can't skip anymore classes!!

Well, yesterday couldn't sleep well... kept on waking up at night... too hot... cuz my blanket is too thick...so I removed my blanket...then too cold...couldn't sleep...!! Then what to do! remove or cover also cannot! Then my neck was in a great pain.. this side cannot, that side also cannot! how to sleep!!! Geeezzz...

then skipped class....went to prangin mall to shop for boots. Bought a pair of white coloured boots at a good price. I saw brown 1...nice...but I wanted black...black a lot of pairs also outta sizes...so went home with only a pair of white boots. Gonna go grab the brown coloured 1....! sooooooooon! hahaa......
but I know I won't always wear them..just saja wanna spend money!!!

so this is my plain white boots. plain boots will not be out to date.... so it's a better choice




My actual shoes size = 8. but for boots I take 9..bigger thus more comfy...weeeeeeeeeeeee

white one is too plain....getting 1 in brown....better...nicer....wooohoo

to do list

it's already week 4th or 5th of the semester. 5th I guess.. I am still blur about my course outlines.

1. research metho. assignment
2. operation management assignment
3. operation management test this week. chapter 1-4
4. find text books.

finish assignment before due date!!

hihi~

it's been a month since I ever applied mask on my face! argh, i feel so awful and dirty!
today is my last day in SP, going back to PG tomorrow!
i've a lot of things to buy....
sunglasses, shoes, heels, some accesories, headbands, mask....
OMG...... money please come back to me.
i am seriously in need of skin care.
believe it or not.
i m not using anything.....
no moisturizer.....basic skin care also none...just japan facial wash rm9 per tube which I got from watson......sometimes use st.ives scrub, or olay facial wash...mix...
then garnier toner only. that's all

i always like to buy skin care...... but my skin is very sensitive.... restrict me from using any products. i havent found a product which suits my skin! damn it. I dont feel like a lady...
seriously

现代男人

厉害说大话。吃饱没事做跟一班猪朋狗友喝茶，说大话，boom来boom去，说女生谁漂亮谁性感。就因为太无聊，没有见过世界，没有看过女生，丑的也被他们说到像天使。没有水准。
现代的男人。说话用boom的，往往说到做不到。
没钱却没有努力去赚，天天还可以跟猪朋狗友出去boom! 浪费宝贵时间，牺牲睡眠在外做些无聊的事。 花钱打game.
现代男人，有多少个可信？
现代男人，没有志气。
家里有钱的，每星期三星期六去clubbing, 开几支酒就以为很伟大，可以骗到很多无知少女回家。可怜的他们在暗暗闪闪的灯光下看到的女生全部都是美的。 回到家全部都是吓人的。这些现代男人，以为自己很威的男人，如果今天你没你老爸， 你是什么？！我告诉你，你是sampah masyarakat! 社会垃圾。
爸爸辛辛苦苦赚钱给你希望你会好好利用，给你一个很简单的开始，有钱，有做什么都容易。你却拿去泡女， 赌，到最后输了整家产，得了整身病，害了老婆孩子家人，你还是人吗？
没钱的，爸爸没有， 自己也没有上进心，要起步，多难？？需要多少的时间，多少的奋斗？没有钱了，就要好好珍惜，用最少时间最低本钱来企业。
现代男人，有多少个信得过？为了怕输， 没钱装有钱，到最后欠人一生zai(on debt)(我的华文不好我不会写)

现代男人，你何时醒呢？？？？

说不出的辛苦

我现在很闷哦。回到sp了。没有事做，家里又很热。如果在房间开冷气，就不能上网。因为房间没有wireless.
不能忍受热的我，就驾着我的白色myvi来到这个cafe online!
唉。。一个人。。还是一个人。。又是一个人。。
说真的，我很喜欢一个人的感觉。我可以没有知己， 我可以一个人过活。我的世界是寂寞的，黑暗的。我不喜欢有多多人的地方。我喜欢很暗的地方。我恨不得把我槟城的家放上黑色的窗帘！讨厌太阳！
我在外是个很外向的人， 但我的心里住着一个很黑暗很内向的我。
我真的很希望可以找到一样能够让我真正的快乐起来的人。。
到现在都找不到。。
自从离开了教会，离开上帝后，我感觉我整个人是黑暗的。我做了不少的错事。而且还是明知故犯。
做了很多工，赚了很多的钱。可以吃很多名贵的， 买名贵的东西。但，心还是空虚的。
回到家要面对着破碎的家庭（父母两个都有很大的问题）。。。
我很想离开。。。。。快点离开。。。
我要出国。。但是。。。
出国后家里发生什么事我都不知道。。。是好事。。
万一真的需要我时。。。我怎么回家。。。。。

很烦。。
真的希望我的白马王子快快出现。。。帮帮我。。。安慰我。。。。
啊。。。。。。。。。神阿救救我吧

dreams

Everyone has their own dreams.
My still-unfulfilled dreams are:
1. dine in luxurious restaurants. At least twice per month. I don't like hot and non-classy places.
2. have a lot of branded stuffs and bags.
3. eat whatever I want to eat without having to look at the price.
4. go travel anytime I like. and don't have to worry about money.
5. candle light dinner.
6. surprises.
7. don't have to work but get money from hubby.

I want to go travel.
I think I am going to Pulau pangkor this coming june....
mom is still the best.......

Monday

A boring Monday.
Skipped morning class cuz I am tired after 3 days of work.
Continuously 3 days of high heels, in 4 layers of clothes. PC FAIR 1.
As a cosplay girl for Kingory online game.
But I guess nothing comes easy, just bear with it if you want extra income.
Nothing is easy in this world.
I'm sorry to my friends, who have asked me for jobs and never got any.
Just to let you guys know, all I can do is to get phone number or email address for you guys. The next step you need to do is to send profile to agent/client. If you get selected, congrats! If you don't, try again next time. Don't blame me for not getting any jobs. Cuz even I need to send in profiles together with pictures and vital stats: ep: (34C, 26, 36), weight and kg. Then I will go through selection and sometimes interviews. If I pass I get it.
And for the sales job that I do, not everyone can do it. If I ask you there, you don't have sales for today, you'll be sacked the very next day. So please understand. I don't want you to go around telling people that you got sacked or whatever it's. Or say that my jobs are so hard to do. If my jobs are hard, I won't be earning so much. I can sales hard, I can talk. I know not everyone can. Everyone has different skills and ability. I truly understand.
If talking doesn't suit you, don't sales. Try to do other things.
I can do all. From sales to promoting to showing.
If you can't sales, you promote, if you cant, you show. If you can't show, then promote. Be flexible.
Thanks!

I know I don't look good in above pictures because I was messy and sweating for the whole day. Imagine the crowd and the weather. Imagine the 4 layers of clothes I had to wear. I know I may not look the best, I'm not perfect, and I know it. And I know that I'm fat. so keep your disgraceful comments if you were to give any. thanks.

I'm very sincere during work. And sincere when applying for any jobs. I would state in my profile that I'm not a thin girl, I'm a little bit meaty. If you can accept, take it; if you can't, don't hire me. I don't wanna go there and then get sacked back home cuz i can't wear the uniform. So you people do the same okay! Don't fake height or weight or vital stats. It's very important.
Be sincere.

I'll have roadshows next month again. For London Weight.
I'll have other jobs coming!!
Sometimes when I receive calls for jobs, I see the salary is high, I will take it. So no more slots left. If the boss asks me to find friends to work together, I will inform my friends. or post on facebook.
If I receive calls and I don't wanna work, mostly because the salary is below RM100, I will open it to my friends. Usually not many slots too. please understand.

Opps

I know what I'm going to wear this coming Fri- Sun. A terrifying one.
But what to do. People say, there ain't no free lunch. Sigh.
But my tummy is not flat....! I will look even fatter in photos!

I'm going to dye my hair tomorrow, purely brown that's close to red. Yeah. Promotion. So I wanna try try = p then at 5pm I will head to Tesco Sungai Dua to work. Monday - Thursday = 5pm- 10pm work as supervisor for london weight management roadshow.
Then fri- sun work as show girl @ pc fair. fuuuyoh...gonna be so tired but in 7 days I can earn RMxxxx, it's private and confidential so cant tell. Sorry = (
Didn't plan to work for london this time because pc fair job pays me higher, and i have classes on weekdays. But my leader asked me to work and she would pay me a better price = ) so yeah, on...!! 5 hours per day only! = )
some more can get incentive and commission like normal! Yeah!!! money money come to me!! Muahahahahaha~~

hihi~~~

Going back to Penang tomorrow night.
Rejected this weekend's job including freshkon promoter @ Focus point and London weight management job. Too last minute so didn't work. Haha. actually I wanted to come back SP to get money from my parents = p
Just did some investment. Left with rm150 in my bank account. But it's temporary. Wednesday will get back some of my money.

Waiting for the coming PC Fair!! Haahahaha~~
Nice pay nice uniform but fat lady in it. LOL.
I'm trying to lose weight. Cut down consumption of food. Sometimes I fail. Cuz I like to eat. Sigh. NVM!!! haha. fat ma fat lo.......not like doremon can already!!

Byebye!!!!! I am so fat!!!

Sunday

Just done my 2 days job at Pisa for Industrial Expo. LOL.
Received a few msgs from unknowns. They said that they saw me at Pisa and asked me why nowadays Industrial Expo hire show girl =.="
I feel weird too. I'm the only one there anyway.
Worked for Chew, the boss. job scope was to give out flyers only. Easy job!!
10am-6pm RMXXX payment on the spot. Hooray. I like it.
If I knew Chew was the one who smsed me to work a week before event, I would have agreed because the payment was RMxxx per day. but I thought it was another guy who offered only rm80 so I rejected. At last Chew asked me to work again for Fri and Sat, payment RMxxx, then only I realised I missed out RMxxx. Really easy job!!

Hehe,
yesterday was the last day.
So happy because someone from another booth printed my pictures on a big banner for free by using the big big printers for printing banners.
I received some pens with my name printed on them.
I had fun the whole day.
^^
and I got paid at 5sth then went home... woohoooo~nicenice

Oh ya I saw my OB lecturer there. OMG OMG I couldnt recognise him at first!! Luckily I could at last. Hehe... his wife praised me some more.. =.="

anyway anyway,
I'll make sure I attend every class start from this week because I've wasted a lot of money. I don't wanna fail again. Money is hard to earn nowadays

Now waiting for PC fair, already got a job.
Worked for kingston 2 times, they called me again this time but they pay they offer is way too low compared to the job that I got. So said sorry to them ....

XOXO......
Money comes in like water goes out like stuffed drains nowadays. The more money I earn, the more stingy I become because I start to know how to treasure my hard-earned money.
I wanted to buy a set of skin care which cost RM400++ but decided not to because I suddenly became kiam siap(stingy). Bcuz 400++ I need to work for 2 days okay.. zzzzz... Sometimes no job don't get to earn!!

So happy this year, jobs are offered almost every week.
Great. But if it's lower than rm100 per day, most probably won't work.
I don't wanna torture myself.

Now.....
I'm planning to go on diet.
I gained weight recently. Around 2-3 kg.
the waist is now 26. I find it okay already, except for my arms, my thighs. They don't wanna slim down; or shall I say; I don't wanna stop eating mcd kfc mcd mcd mcd mcd mcd is heaven!

Today is Sunday. Do nth, don't even feel like going out, too jam out there, parkig fees are too expensive. So just stay home, online... sleep..
That's my life.
I like to be alone. I know tat I am safe being alone.

Will go back to hometown this week. I wanna go meet up a friend of mine.....

hohoho~~ Money money money....
20k is the minimum amount of money I will have before year 2010. I will try my best to achieve 30k!!!!! Oh ya not to forget I still have a few thousands in fixed, I havent taken out!!
anyway, gonna check out ambank investment. I think they pay pretty good.

Lazy~

I've difficulty waking up in the morning for classes but find it easy when it comes to waking up early for jobs! Some people say it's because I get paid when I wake up early for jobs. But I'm actually wasting a lot of money when I skip classes. I pay for tuition fees(damn expensive.Take note that my college is fully private, not semi-gov like TARC), resources fees( I've not made used of it. I've not borrowed any book from the library yet!) When I skip, I am wasting money. When I fail, I am wasting even more because it's so expensive to retake.

So, I'll make sure I skip no more classes start from next week ^^

Anyway, gonna work for Industrial Expo @ Pisa tomorrow. Weird right? I've no knowledge for automation but gonna work. ha~~ But it's okay... I'm gonna dress in tube top and mini skirt so you know what I'm gonna work as.
= ) Don't need to have knowledge.
However, I missed today's job because I thought that I had classes so I told the guy I couldn't make it for all 3 days.
He smsed me this morning asking me to work for Fri and Sat only.
Oh great, I quickly agreed bcuz the salary is pretty attractive.

= )

New sem.... New life.... Must start dieting.....

PC fair is next = ) nono, maybe homedec is next?

Depression

I'm online alone in a cafe nearby my house. I have a cup of black milk tea beside me. I'm not lonely.
I'm depressed. My heart is empty. Who's there to fill my empty cup? I find no one.
I'm depressed. I find no trustworthy and true friends to share my agony. I cannot even share my pain to my bf. Somehow I would think, what is a bf for when you cannot even share your pain to him. I struggle to articulate my thoughts. I'm a weirdo. It's my problem.
I have no one to communicate with. Maybe that's the way I choose to be.
At times I feel like dying, because this world is no longer a good place to live.

I want everything to be better, but I still choose to remain in the worst.
I'm a weirdo.

One Malaysia = Utter disappointment

As mentioned earlier, I was working for New York Skin Solution roadshow at Carrefour Butterworth for 3 days. Done it, and there's one more to come. Which is at Tesco Sungai Dua. I will be promoting London Weight Management there.

Well, everything went smooth without a hitch. Great sales, earned a lot of money in these 3 days, great food, great sleeping place(hotel)... etc.
Carrefour roadshow came to an end today at 10pm.
Everything was great before 9.55pm!!

We needed a trolley in order to move all our banners and leaflets back to our car since it was the last day there.
So yeah, I went to search for a trolley at 9.55pm. Cashier counters are always the best places to find a trolley because customers leave their trolleys there after payment is made. This can help to ease the guard's job as he doesn't need to push them back to the place where they belong. So I went there to hunt for a trolley. Then I saw one, the MALAY uncle was paying the cashier with the trolley quite far away from him. I thought that it was not his trolley because every customer leaves their trolleys there!!!!!! Hello, Who knows it's his?????? So I stood there for a while. And saw that he only bought maggi mee, and some biscuits, just 2 small bags of things, I quickly assumed that he would leave the trolley there and that he wouldn't want it anymore even if it was his trolley. So I pushed the trolley back to my booth.
Just when I was pushing back, he was shouting like mad at me. So I turned back and saw that it was him calling for his trolley back. In fact, he was CURSING me for his trolley back. So I immediately turned to him. I said:" Really sorry, I thought that you didn't need it anymore." Yes, I did say a sorry and gave it back to him. I did say a sorry. A sorry. A SORRY for a mistake that I just made. JUST A TROLLEY ANYWAY!
He then scolded me:" BODOH(foolish in english)!! I BAYAR DEKAT SINI I TAK MAU AH?( I pay here, you can say I don't needed it anymore? "
Was there a need to scold me BODOH in a harsh way?? I already said sorry for not knowing that he still needed it.
I was fed up enough when he said that. But fine, since it was my mistake. So I walked away and felt angry because he scolded me BODOH. I was mumbling some vulgar words.
Just when I was walking away, he blurted out:" BODOH!!!!(foolish), ONE MALAYSIA !@#$%^&*(I didn't understand) MACAM INI BODOH!!!)
I am a very bad tempered person, you know I cannot walk away without replying! Scolding me foolish already got me freaking angry. CUZ OF A TROLLEY!!!!!!!! You want I can push you 20!!!!!!! So I scolded back loudly:" I MEMANG TAK TAU, TAK BOLEH?? CIBAI!!!!!" Excuse me, every customer leave their trolleys there. Then I walked away, my face turned really red, everyone was looking at me and knew that I was really mad.
Why need to talk about ONE MALAYSIA at the same time cursing me stupid?? Are you saying that we chinese are foolish???And that we are Malaysians so we are so stupid like that? I bet you are a racist, old folk.
I will die of heart attact one day. You are in your sixties. If I had a gun, I would have shot him just now. I am sure all the chinese there were not very happy with him for saying the "one malaysia !@#$%^&*" thing!


I tell you what, old folk. I am never proud to be a Malaysian. I don't wanna be a Malaysian. If I were given a chance to reborn, I would never pick Malaysia.
Elder people always tell me to leave Malaysia if I have the chance. My parents ask me to leave. Even my house owner has sent his family to Australia and told me to leave Malaysia if possible because it's not a good place anymore. So Please do not talk about one malaysia in front of me because I am not a Malaysia, I am from my mother's womb, I am mothersia!!!!

Let Malaysia be MALAYsia = )

Of course, I am not saying that all malays are bad, some are really good. Some even scold their own race for being stupid, for being too narrow minded. I love doctor Mahathir because he once said that Malays are stupid. Oh well, of course he wasn't saying ALL.....
Peace *

4.3.2010 ; 9.50pm

Hi! It's been long since I ever blogged. As a result, less and less people pay their visit.
It's okay!
Anyway, it's holiday now! Semester break. And it's what I like the most!!
Hang out, relax, do nothing, laze around....and work!!! etc etc....

I don't wanna go back to hometown, I also don't feel like going out because of the weather!
Anyway, I'm now in Pearl View Hotel Butterworth.
People keep asking me why am I here? Some guy even asked what do I do in hotel? work as what? I guess their mind turned dirty when they asked this.
The reason why I am here is because I've a job on fri, sat and sun.
Accomodation is provided. And the job is New York Skin Solution event promoter!! LOL

Thanks to Elie's bf - Jack for fetching me and my bf to jetty. Then I took a bus from Butterworth jetty to my hotel which is in Chai leng park. Of course my bf didn't follow. He went back to SP.

This is my room = )

The bed sheet is dirty, the table is full of ants. Ewwwww!

free today

Woke up at 1pm..online.. and chatted with my sister(SKYPE) until 4pm.
After that went to prangin mall to have my favourite tomyam alone to have my brunch. yes. alone..My life is boring. As I don't make friends around. I've a lot of Hi Bye friends but I don't have very close friends. Because I find it hard to trust in people around me. So yeah, alone is not that sad, is it? What I like is staying at home all the time. I guess because home is where the heart is. Haha.

My fish nuggets with fries!

Tomyam...Damn nice. Damn spicy that's why I like it!

Done 5th semester.

There are 7 semesters for my Diploma course.
Done 5, 2 more to go. Not to count failed subjects in. Left 2 more.
Woohoo.
Done Micro and Macro papers.
I seriously cannot fail anymore for the next 2 semesters. Or else my course will be prolonged again!!
I wanna graduate faster and study 2 more years of degree!!
I don't wanna grow up, yet I wanna graduate faster. I'm contradicting myself.

Recently never took any photos so no photos to upload on facebook. Sad...

I just know that I'm finally relieved because exam is OVER!
OVER!!!

Yay~

5.8 gathering

Just came back from 5.8 (IT) class gathering.
Went to old town and chatted over there, then Adrian suggested that we should go Sunway Carnival to catch a movie. So after talking we headed to Sunway Carnival for "The lightning thief". It wasn't that bad but not so interesting either.
Anyway, 3 star for that movie.
After movie we headed to Auto City to have our dinner. But due to complaint from one of my ex-classmates dad, I had to drive her car back to SP. Then dropped myself back to my house, bid goodbye. Then went to pack porridge as my dinner.
I just realised that I'm so fucking fat. I seriously need to slim down = (


Here are some photos that I managed to snap just now. Just a few though.

Captured in the car when I was waiting for all to come.

Classmates

~XOXO~

Allen Saw went genting. left me alone. We planned to go back to Penang today. but he went to genting. sudden decision. I had to wait him for 1 more day. Don't get back to penang means no study. Shit, doesn't he know that exam is on next wednesday?
It's difficult to make him understand when he quit college himself years back!